Neverland

two

When school let out, I heard the yelling of my best friend telling me to wait up, so we could catch the bus together.

I knew my ride home, and as soon as we got to my house, would be hell for me because I knew she would be talking about that new boy,  Adam.

  I don't really know why, but I don't want her with him. It's almost like I'm jealous. It's not like I like him or anything.

  I guess I zoned out because the next thing I knew, Delilah was screaming in my face to get on the bus.

  "Dude what's up with you lately? Ever since that incident in the hallway you've been weird," said Delilah, "Speaking of that 'incident', wasn't that Adam boy cute? I thought he was at least. I mean those eyes, *sighs* are like pools of icy blue crystals."

"I'm not too sure if having 'icy blue crystals' in your eyes is healthy. He may need to get that checked out," I reply and try to change the subject, "so did anything new happen today?"

"You were with me all day. Seriously what's wrong with you?"

"Nothing, nothing. I'm sorry I honestly don't know what's wrong."

When we get to my house we automatically go to my room and turn on our music. My Chemical Romance time.

I go to my mirror and get out some hair ties, bobbie pins, and a black beanie. I start to pull my hair up and put the beanie over it. Delilah turns away from her phone to look at me.

"What are you doing to your hair?", she asks.

  "I don't know. I was thinking about maybe getting it cut short like this. Don't you think it would be cute?"

  "Yeah, but why do you want to get it cut that short? I thought you liked your long hair."

"I do but I was thinking of a small change."

After Delilah went home and I had eaten supper, I was lying on my bed just looking at the celling and thinking of random things. A few things in particular were, 'why am I jealous of Adam and Delilah?' 'Am I concerned for Delilah's being or my
friendship with her?'  My mind was racing with questions like this. Those were frequent ones, but this one was at the top of my existential crisis list right now; 

Do I even know myself?

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Wow okay sorry guys for not updating in like forever. I'm gonna try to write more often now but not sure with school and all.
Thanks lovelies <3
12-07-15 //S.