Well, to be honest I didn't 'delete' it, I just unpublished it cus I thought it was bad...
But this leads up to a different issue. I kinda have an inferiority complex. It's probably one of the reasons that I haven't written lately, cus I'm scared of failing with my books. It's really stupid and looking back at some of my newer but older stories... I realize that I'm actually really good and need to get over it...
Like this one that I have unpublished called 'The hard truth'. It's about a girl who realizes that her world isn't what she thinks it is.
(Here's an excerpt)
"The Harsh Truth
We all have one
We all face one
But mine is different
My name is Neira, and have broken away from my world. Not my world however, a young child's world. The world they created in their mind. Everyone's thoughts come true and drift off to fill a space of repeated reality. A world that they create and once discarded is left alone, the only thing it can do is repeat itself. A world where when I lose self awareness I use my instinct which instructs me what to do.
I noticed on the day, when I was sick of pancakes.
Like an awkward Artificial Intelligence system, I became self aware. Every day I awaken from my slumber in a neatly made bedroom. My satin covers draped over my extended figure, a soft pillow under my cheek. The air, lingering with the scent of flowers, always seems crisp with perfection.
Only a dream could be this perfect.
My mother walked in my room, dressed in her primest work clothes, would call me to breakfast. I would get up, and follow her down the stairs outside of my room wearing a silky nightgown. And as always, there upon the table was pancakes. They seemed too perfect. Golden brown with syrup and butter upon a silvery tray with utensils set out. Always exactly the same, every day.
As a self aware being, I must be clever and plan out what to do. I must wait and keep track of every event in a repeated day. I have to start counting the days."
Now it's certainly not the best, but it's a lot better than what I had expected, and with my new storyline for Twins I might even rewrite Derek and Angel going further into how their relationship started :3.
Thanks for even taking the time out of your day to read this or ask a question!
Seeyah
