Don't Apologize Gabriel

Mistakes By The Dozen

Gabriel's eyes fluttered open he looked over to the prostitute laying next to him. "Shit! Please tell me this is some stupid prank" he said. He looked hoping to find glamour. His eyes widened when he heard his husband's heavy footsteps, quickly he poofed the girl to some place outside of Phoenix.

"Morning babe" Sam smiled falsely.

"Morning kiddo" the arch angel greeted nervously. Sam's smile fell and his face was blank. "What's wrong Sammy?" I asked playing innocent.

"Who was she Gabriel?" Sam asked, his face still numb.

"Who?" Gabriel asked still playing innocent. Sam glared.

"That girl that was in our bed, or maybe there were more girls throughout the 8 years we've been together" Sam said. Gabriel's face fell.

"No Sam! I swear it was just her, I had a moment of weakness!" Gabriel said. His eyes filled with tears. Sam's glare deepened.

"So I guess those vows meant absolutely nothing if I wasn't even a whisper in your mind, when that prostitute asked if you wanted a good time. Huh Gabe?" Sam's eyes filled with tears.

"No Sammy it wasn't like that! It was a drunken mistake it'll never happen again!" Gabriel cried.

"That's what you said last time" Sam growled. Gabriel stared at Sam. He'd never been growled at by him. "Give me your ring" Sam said icily. Gabriel swallowed and complied. Sam held up the ring, "Do you know what this ring means? It means trust, faith, love, and fidelity. All things in which you've lost from me" Sam said as he threw the ring down the bathroom sink walking away. Gabriel's eyes widened as the he watched his husband walk out the door. He leaned against the wall and slid down it, he started crying.

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Dean held Sam in a brotherly fashion as the younger of the two cried into the elder's shoulders.

"He said he'd never do it again, Dean" Sam cried. He ripped the now meaningless gold ring of his finger. "Together forever, always is our never" he read. "My ass" he threw the ring in some direction hearing a clink as it landed. Dean held Sam unsure of what to do. Sam got up, "I'm going to bed" he said walking out of the room. Sam made sure Dean wasn't following him and walked to the bathroom. He grabbed the sleeping pills and walked to his room. He began writing.

Dear Dean, 

I'm sorry you had to find me like this, but I can't go on. First Jess and then Gabe. I'm weak Dean. I admit it. Don't be too hard on Gabe. Don't take your anger out on Cas, Crowley, or Bobby. They don't deserve it. Goodbye Dean, I can't be saved. 

~Sammy

Ps; Don't read the back.

On the back he wrote a note, just for Gabriel. When he finished he got a hand full of pills, laid in bed, and swallowed. His eyes closed. He saw light, he saw his parents, grinning and waving him over. He walked over then there was dark.

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Dean walked into Sam's room and noticed the note. He read it and his eyes widened. He dropped the paper and tried shaking Sam awake. When that didn't work he tried to make him throw up. That didn't work, he was too far gone. Dean held Sam to his chest and cried, he cried harder then ever.

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Gabriel stood at the grave of his husband, tears running down his face.

"I'm sorry Sammy" he whispered before stabbing his heart with his blade. 

~~~End~~~