Phil,
It's been 12 years since we met.
2 years ago was when I replied back.
It's been that long since I've tried talking to you again. You still haven't forgiven me. You haven't done anything. In my perspective, you're done, as you said. You kept your promise to yourself, but I don't have a promise against me. All I want is for you to talk to me, but around this time a few years ago, that's all you wanted from me and I didn't give it to you.
I guess I'm doing what you did 3 years ago.
I'm saying goodbye.
You had your goodbye, so I'm saying mine officially. I'm 30, and you told me to move on when I was fucking 28.
I understand why you're done with me, because I would be done with myself. I never blamed you for anything you've said to me or did. I don't blame you for making PJ and Chris promise you to not give me your number. I don't blame you for many things, so please don't blame me for leaving, because this is what you wanted.
This may be the last time you hear from me, but I'm doing what I think is right for you.
This isn't what I want, but I'm forcing myself to do this.
My goodbye is overrated at this point by how long I ignored you.
I'll never forget about you, Philip Michael Lester.
I'll miss you.
From,
Daniel James Howell
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Emails To Phil (Sequel to EMAILS TO DAN)
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