Once Was Lost, But Now I'm Found

Chapter 4: *More Internal Screaming*

(Above is the song I listened too while writing this. It honestly has no connection to the story but it's super good. Khai Dreams is so underrated, I love him)

lol sry if everything is super boring at the moment. I wanna try to keep this as realistic as I want it to be but i get it can get pretty boring. Especially trying to keep the emotions and reactions as real as posible but geez im writing a fanfic about a mafia child and a personified country. So why bother right?

Also, apologies for the very long wait. There's no excuse for my absence (other than the fact that my ass got sick for almost a month rip) and I wish I had gotten to work on this sooner. I hope you all can forgive me (school hasn't exactly been kind so it's hard to get those creative juices going when my schedule is full of studying and projects almost every week)

And sry about the chapter title. Haha i had no idea what else to name it

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~~~1st POV~~~

Despite having a lot of trouble moving my body, I managed to furrow my brows in confusion.

What? Hospital? I guess that could explain the beeping because of a heart monitor but I don't ever remember- wait. If I could have, I would've jumped up and gasped. Did that guy I saw before take me here? I could feel my heart speed up a little, which could be heard from the heart monitor next to my bed. Oh, thank God it wasn't one of father's men.

"B-B-But who..." I began, my voice quivering and cracking from the lack of use. The voice hummed quietly before stating slyly, "A blond man brought you in. I would tell you his name but I seemed to have forgotten it. Oh well, doesn't matter. Because after we're done here helping you get better, we'll have (Father) kill him for touching you." I felt my body freeze on the spot once I heard (Father)'s name come from this guy's mouth. Goosebumps littered my skin as I could feel my heart beat rapidly against my chest. And from that, the heart monitor began to beep at an alarming rate.

"Honestly, it's a surprise that you survived on your own without us. You even ended up getting a severe case of hypothermia. I thought you weren't gonna make it but here you are."

Nononononononononono. Oooh God noooo. Why does this always have to happen? I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. "N..o..." I whimpered weakly as tears leaked from my eyes, but this guy obviously didn't hear it as he just continued on talking. "It was quite disappointing, not seeing you die. 'Cuz if you weren't in the picture, I could be the only one that he needs. I could be the only thing in his world that matters. He could finally see me and lo-"

He paused before releasing a small chuckle. "Ah, I should probably stop. Don't wanna let too much out, right (F/N)?" Random nurse-doctor guy sighed before leaning up to my face, a sly smile on his lips. "After all, you don't want the people around you to end up dead like him right?"

I resisted the urge to cry as it felt like an invisible cage was surrounding my heart. Everything felt like it was closing in on me; my breathing sped up as an ache could be felt from my chest. "...I.. It hurts..."

  A cold glare replaced the nurse's sly stare as he sneered. He opened his mouth, probably about to say something snarky and messed up in response to my weak state when the doors opened. "Hey, Petey, I'm back- what's happening?"

A new voice interrupted as his heavy footsteps entered the room, followed by lighter footsteps and another voice. "Mr. Mulligan, what's wrong?" Was that another nurse?

Through glossed-over eyes, I saw Petey's glare turn into one of seriousness and faked worry. "I was writing down notes until I noticed that she had woken up. The heart monitor started going nuts and she kept mumbling about something hurting so I thought I'd check on her condition."