Cutting Knifes

Party(warning sex scene!!)

I wake up around 4:30 and smoke. I inhale the smoke and breath out. I've been doing this for a year. I got ready for school and waited in the kitchen.

I ate some waffles and fruit just for everyone,but I threw it up again. I smoked again and drove to school.

I finished 6th period and ran into the bathroom. I took out the knife from my jean pocket and slit my feet and writs 100 times. I quickly rinsed my writs and put on my bracelets then walked out.

After school(30 minutes before party)
I put on some different clothes and makeup. I curled my hair then brushed my teeth. I packed my purse then left.

At the party;
I walked in and ordered a plate of vodka and tequila shots then a meal called fucking slut. It had potatoes and corn with chicken tacos.

I ate my food and then drank all my shots. I felt pretty strange then bumped into someone. Colby Raver. He grabbed my hand and shoved me into a room. He stripped of my clothes and himself. He kissed my lips and groaned. He started rubbing my clit while kissing me. I moaned and arched my back. Soon enough he shoved his fingers into me.(I'm skipping. I just can't).

I woke up in my bed and cut. I cut and cut and cut 120 times. I took a cig out the pouch and lit it. I smoked in my bathroom nobody gives a flying fuck. Damn I felt sick. I threw up into the toilet and wiped my mouth. I changed into clothes and got ready for school.

After school I took a bath. I felt pretty sick and threw up again. I groaned and dried off. I changed into pajamas and ate my dinner. I got ready for bed and threw up again. I got a big bottle of water,crackers,my phone,razor,and a bucket. I promised myself every time I threw up I would cut.

Turns out I cut 6 times. I stayed home that day. I threw up pretty much 50,000 times. I so need to checked.