Whisked away from reality with Styles (Harry Styles/1D fanfic)

Chapter 16.

The weeks flew past after that, it had been 3 weeks since what happened and it was almost impossible to even start thinking about it, I had been locked up in my own little bubble ever since, I had taken time off University because I just wasn't stable.

I looked into the bathroom mirror once again, looking at the reflection of a horrible, sick, stupid whore looking back at me, I hated myself and had mentally been beating myself up every single day, I couldn't let it drop and get on with my life, I am an emotional, anxious mess.

I took a make up wipe from the cupboard in bathroom and began scrubbing off last nights mascara, I had given up with how I look, everything had got out of control, I wasn't Beth anymore. I breathed out and tossed the wipe into the bin as I put my hair up into a messy bun and pulled on my hoodie, I heard the radio faintly playing away to itself in the kitchen then followed by a familar voice, I froze as I heard "Kiss You" blare out of the speakers, I flew down the stairs and switched off the radio, there was no way I could listen to them right now.

"Hey, do you mind? Was listening to that." Louis' voice came from behind, I jumped as I hadn't noticed him when I rushed down, I gulped and was actually scared of what he might say to me, after all I did break his best friends heart into pieces. I looked over at him, "Sorry, I'll er..put it back on." I said nervously and he waved his hands infront of him, "Don't bother it's fine." Louis let out a little smile which put me at ease.

"Becky is at supermarket if you're wondering.." Louis added, I nodded slowly and got myself a glass of orange juice, my hands slightly shaking from all the anxiety I suffered with. Louis stood up, he was wearing a black vest and shorts, his tattoo's all on show and his hair swooped to side, he came closer to me and pointed to my arm, "What you done there Beth?" Shit he had noticed my cut.

I looked at it and bit my lip trying to think of a lie to get me out of it, "Oh that, um I scraped it on the wall outside it's no big deal." I tried to persuade Louis but he was having none of it, "Becky has told me you self harmed the other day.." Louis frowned then sat down opposite me and held my shaky hand, I felt my bottom lip quiver with fright, he was right...I had cut my arm on purpose. I looked at him nervously as I began to stutter, "It-it wasn't suicidal or anything, I just got pretty low, well..really low." I laughed a little then swirled my juice round and round then stopped as Louis held both my hands firmly. "You have got to stop that okay? it might have been just once but promise me that you will never do it again, ever." Louis' voice was full of concern, my heart warmed at the fact he cared about my wellbeing, I glanced up at him and nodded with agreement then let out a sigh knowing he was going to bring up the Niall incident soon enough.

"Want a coffee? or tea?'' Louis asked with a slight smile, "Tea, two sugars please, like it milky and not scolding hot." I told him as I watched his eyes widen, "God wish I hadn't of asked now." He let out a jokingly giggle and went off to make them, I smiled to myself and shook my head. "I'm fussy with how I like my tea!" I exclaimed and he just laughed away.

I waited for my drink as I chewed on my nails without even realising, playing with my hair, not able to keep my hands still for a second, it must of looked really obvious that I was a mess.

"So, Niall and you..." Louis started as he sat opposite me placing the drinks down, his tone was different now, as if he had just remembered about what I had done, christ almighty. I bit my lip hard and was determined to not cry like the pathetic girl I am, I cleared my throat, "What about us?" I said whilst twirling my spoon in my tea, mentally wanting to run away and hide. "What happened? There must be an explanation?" Louis asked sharply, it was obvious he wanted answers so I began to answer them for him, if I could.

"I just.." I gulped and looked at him, "Harry and me had a little to do on the park because of Niall, he thought he was coming on to me when he really wasn't and.." I breathed out, "Niall offered to bring me back to hotel so I-" I was immediately stopped by Louis jumping to his feet, his voice now more firmer. "So Niall was chatting to you so Harry got jealous only because he was protective of you and loved you! so instead of telling Harry there was no need to get worked up...you went back alone with Niall instead!" Louis almost shouted down at me, everything he was saying made me feel worser than I had already felt, I began to cry as I couldn't take it anymore, the way he said "loved you", Harry loved me but he doesn't anymore, all because of me, Louis was right but I couldn't listen to it.