Rain In His Eyes (A Jaspar AU)

In A Different Way

Quick A/N before we begin, MissSivan-Oakley and I would love to thank you all for the support on this book. We just passed 100 reads and are really super happy. K continue.

Joe:

Right now I'm sitting with Zoe and Louie in my dorm room, obviously talking about Caspar.

"I need to talk to him about me liking him guys. My heart just about snapped when he ran from us today. I need him near me or in my arms where I want him to stay. What should I do?" I cried my heart out to them and I didn't care they either are or are like family to me.

I love them, but I love Caspar in a different way. I want and need him around anywhere I go.

"Well you could actually ask him out on a date. Then he would be your boyfriend, but you have to be there for him, always!" Zoe said to me.

I looked up at her. She was so naïve. He ran from me because I liked him. He ran from he because I wanted him. He ran from me because I loved him. He ran from me because I needed him. Well, I still need him. I need his touch, his smile, his laugh, his voice, his eyes, his presence. And yet here I am. All alone. So Zoe. Poor naïve Zoe. I know she means well, but honestly? She needs a reality check. Caspar is probably just going to tell everybody that I'm Gay, Nash will tease me even more and my life will be over.

"Joe?" Zoe's voice breaks my concentration.

"Yeah sorry. Zoe he ran away because I like him." I replied sadly.

"Dude, you're really down. Is there anything we can do to help?" Louis asked, hopeful he could cheer me up.

Just as I was about to answer, the door bell for our tiny flat/dorm rang. Zoe jumped up to greet them. Just then, Aura and Angie came bounding into the room.

"Hey whats up Aura and Angie?" I asked sounding really sad.

"Nothing. Whats wrong? Is it the Caspar thing?" Aura asked.

"I don't know what you are talking about, Aura." I said to cover up that that was the reason I was sad.

"Joe, Caspar told us. He said he heard you say you loved someone, but he didn't hear the name you said. I knew you were talking about him when he told me about what he heard from your conversation with Zo and Lou." Angie explained like I was stupid.

"Oh my god, he thought you were talking about someone else Joe! Thats why he ran away. He did it because he was angry or jealous that someone had your love and not him!" Zoe whisper-shouted to the whole room.

I didn't want to believe it. I didn't want to believe it at all. Caspar? Gay? I couldn't stand the thought of it. And yet, I loved it. I had a chance with him. I had a real chance at being with him. And I-

Plop.

Rain. It started raining heavily outside my window. Angie shook my shoulder.

"Troye's here."

I looked up. He stood in the doorway sopping wet. I cowered in fear. He looked mad. Very mad.

"WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO TO CASP-"

Zoe jumped up and stopped him. But I got mad. Furious. How dare he ask what I did to Caspar. If anything he did a number on me.

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHAT THE HELL DID I DO TO CASPAR! HE HURT ME! HE RAN FROM ME!"

"WHAT! You can't be serious your the one he told hurt his heart Joe. WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIM!!" Troye demanded

I've never seen him so furious.

"Its not my fault he was eavesdropping on my conversation with Zo and Lou, and he took it the wrong way. He thought I was talking about someone else but I was talking about him."

"Troye, I want him. I want him to always be near me. I don't want him to   Leave side. I want him emotionally and physically. I want him to be my boyfriend." I explained. 

He stumbled backwards.

"Wh-what?"

I collapsed onto the bed again.

"I want him to love me, to hug me, to hold me, to smile at me, to kiss me. I. Want. Him."

All of a sudden Caspar showed up behind Troye.

"You... You what?"

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