[ON HOLD]The Breakup-Jizzie Fanfiction 1

Chapter 6

Authors note: two parts of the breakup in one day? WOAHHHHHH! XD sorry that I haven't. Been posting much but here it is. Just a little writers block :) let me know in the comments how many chapters this book should be. I AM MAKING A SECOND ONE. Just thought you should know XD back to the story

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I need to think.
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Do I want to be with Joel or not.
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My fans want me to.
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But I don't know if I want to.
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I go check the channel.
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Lost 20,000 subscribers. Yay.
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All the comments turn into hate. Even more yay.
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I try to record. I fake a smile. "Hey what's up guys. LDShadowLady here, and we are going to be playing some build battle."
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I film the video.
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I render it and upload it.
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My fans are counting on me to post.
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But the question just keeps popping up in my head. Do i want to be with Joel?
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Some people say that I'm their role model because I'm optimistic. but if they see whats behind that fake smile...
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Im miserable.
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Not because of Joel.
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Just because of that same question: Do I want to be with Joel?