2 A.M. Thoughts

《1.》

Would anyone still love someone who has been broken and needs to be fixed?

I don't think so because these days people are too lazy and selfish to love someone like that.
They want the attention to themselves.

You were someone like that. I was broken and you said you could fix me and make me love life again. You gave me hope you gave me a reason to breath again.

I trusted you with all I had and I think that was the biggest mistake I have ever done. Everyday I fell a little more for you. And I knew , that if something would go wrong I would crash really hard but I took the risk because I thought you were different. And oh how wrong I was.

Days passed and our talks became shorter each day. You became so cold and I realized , how stupid I was for falling for you . You didn't text me anymore ,you didn't talk to me or annoyed me in class anymore. You stopped trying to make me laugh in the breaks ,you stopped every little thing I loved about you and no that didn't mean I stopped loving you, it just made me miss you more than ever.

I miss the smile you had when you saw me and the little laughs we had when I did something weird or stupid. I miss our late night talks and all the fun stuff we did together I miss you hugging me when I needed a hug. You always knew something was wrong with me but now I see ,you dont care anymore because while I'm breaking into pieces right infront of you , you don't even look at me.

I saw you found someone else and I realized how easy it was for you to replace me while I will probably never be able to replace you in any way. You looked at her the same way you used to look at me. I was nothing important to you while you were and still are the most important thing in my life and i dont know how but I lost you. Maybe it was because I wasn't enough but I tried I really did try to be everything you needed and wanted but I guess everything wasn't enough for you.

I hope you're happy now that I'm suffering. I hope she treats you the way I would have treated you. I hope she gives you the love you need. I hope she tells you all the amazing and beautiful things about you that you don't realize. Like the way your eyes crinkle when you laugh really hard or how your eyes sparkle when you are excited. How your heart beat becomes really fast but then goes back to normal when someone hugs you or how you try to make everyone happy with all these stupid little things.

I can't get you out of my mind. I need you so bad. I need you to be by my side because without all of this makes no sense to me.
I need you to understand that all I have ever wanted is you because I have never met someone as perfect as you. I really hope you are happy and if anything happens I will always be here for you even if you broke my heart in millions of little pieces.

Because I love you with all I have while you love someone else with all you have.