Suicide Love

Unconditionally

Oh, great. It's 6:30 in the god damn morning, and already do I want to shoot myself in the face.
I got up out of bed and went to the washroom. I washed my face, then went back into my room to change. I put on a pair of black leggings, a cute little crop top, a big sweater, and my favourite pair of Uggs. I straightened my long blonde hair, and did my make up like I normally do. I guess I look okay

I got a text from Glenn
Him: Morning gorgeous :*
Me: Hello (: text me when the bus is close to my stop
Him: Will do

I locked my screen and put my phone in my sweater pocket
I heard someone coming down the stairs. Oh, the joys. "Hey loser." My brother said to me, shoving me out of the way. I stayed silent. He's high. I hate it when he's like this. I grabbed my bag and left, not wanting to deal with him this morning. I know I was early, so I walked down to the Tim Horton's near my house.

"Hello, how may I take your order"? The girl asked me, with the fakest smile. I ordered my regular large coffee, with three cream, three sugar, and walked to the bus stop. I pulled out my pack of cigarettes, and put it between my lips. Coffee in one hand, cigarette in the other. I put it between my lips, and took a long drag as I felt my whole body relax. My phone vibrated in my pocket. I finished my smoke and threw it away. I pulled my phone out of my pocket to see who texted me. I kinda figured it was Glenn, and sure enough, it was.

Him: The bus is right around the corner
Me: Thanks (:

I looked up and the bus was right there. It stopped right in front of me. I scanned my card and looked around for Glenn. I found him smiling at me. I walked over to him, but there were no seats. He patted his lap. "You want me to sit on you"? I asked, considering his option. "Yeah, sit". He patted his lap again. I sat down on him, and put my arms around his neck, while he put his around my waist. He kissed my cheek and I smiled. "You're really cute" He said, and I shook my head no. I don't think he saw though. He pulled out his phone and offered me an earphone. He let me pick the music like always.

We sat like that the whole way there. Some people would glance over at us and smile, thinking we were a couple. Fuck, if only they knew.
We got to school, he kissed me, then gave me a long hug, then we went our separate ways. Violet doesn't go to this school. She goes to one across the city, which sucks, but I see her on weekends.

It was a long ass day. I was tired and all I wanted to do was go home. I waited for Glenn at my locker, and then we walked out to the bus stop. We both pulled out our smokes, and silently puffed. "You don't speak much", he said, looking down at me with his beautiful blue eyes. "I know. You tell me this almost everyday." I say, rolling my eyes at him. He smirks at me and we both throw away the butts of our cigarettes. The bus came. There were seats this time, so we sat side by side. We put music in, and he grabbed my hand, rubbing his thumb over my knuckles. "I like showing people what's mine", he whispered in my ear. Yeah, but I'm not yours, I thought to myself. I looked out the window. It was my stop, so he let me out because I was sitting on the inside. He kissed me passionately, and that's all I could think about on my walk home.