When There was Me and You

Chapter 2

As I was on my way to airport, I called Ka.

"Hello?"

"uhmmm. I'm on my way to airport and I'm going to Palawan."

"great. ok, happy trip girl. Hope you'll enjoy."

"yeah. of course. thanks."

"aaaaaahhh.. you sound so sad."

"yeah. I saw him,."

"oh?! after two months nagkita kayo? so anong feeling?"

"there's a little pain parin pero bearable naman. nag usap kme habang pababa ng elevator then after that I walked away."

"hmmm. I understand. hmm. by the way. I'm going shopping. Call me later pag dating mong Palawan ha?take care.I love you bes."

"I will." then I hang out the phone.

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I'm already in a plane when there was an old lady sat beside me.

She smiled at me while holding an old diary. I smiled back and faced the window.

Mark Yan Castro... his name... I just love him so much. until now. But I just have to move on.

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11:15 I arrived in Palawan.

Nandito ako ngayon sa Cadlao Resort. aaaaaah!! this place is a great place for me. Peaceful and wonderful.

Since tanghali na, Nilagay ko muna ang mga gamit ko sa room ko at nag bihis. I wore a tattered short, slippers, and a white crop top blouse and of course a shades.

Then bumaba na ako at nag order ng tanghalian ko.

Kahit pagod dahil sa byahe, hindi ko inisip yon dahil I'm here to enjoy and rest from all the heartaches and not to sleep.

tapos kong kumain, nag libot libot ako sa beach. I found a table and sat on the chairs. I took out my plan book and started to write my plans for this 4 days vacation. habang binubuksan ko ang plan book ko, instead na gumawa ng plano, nakita ko yung sinulat ko na steps on how to move on.

Steps on how to move on:

1. If you're no longer happy, detach yourself away from all the things that would make you hurt.

2. In order to move, you must feel the pain.

3. Unwind yourself.

Habang binabasa ko, narealize ko na nagawa ko na yung step 1 and step 2. So I guess ang step 3 eh gagawin ko palang. hay nako!

I close the plan book ang kept it inside my bag. I took out my DSLR and took a pictures in somewhere.

Naglakat lakad ako sa dalampasigan at umupo sa tabi. I sat there for a long time and waited for the sun to set.

"Let's end this relationship."

"wha-at? no! why? hindi ka na ba masaya? ok naman tayo diba?"

"No, we're not ok, I guess this relationship isn't working anymore."

"Do you love me?" I said while hugging him from the back.

"Let me go please"

"No! I know you still love me. Ayusin natin to please."

"No! hindi na maaayos to."

"it will kung aayusin. Baby, please.. Don't do this to me. please! I love you"

"Please.. Let go Sam."

"Are you sure you wanted to end this?" I asked.

"Yes!" dahan dahan kong tinanggal ang pagkakayakap ko sakanya at dahan dahang umalis sa condo niya.

I walked away. Masakit. Sobra!

Nagising ako sa realidad nang my tumalsik na tubig saakin. Napansin kong my luha na tumutulo sa mukha ko, dali dali ko itong pinunasan and I looked up and saw a boy looking at me and smiling.

I smiled back.

"sorry po." he said

"it's ok baby." I said while smiling.

"nag smile sya ulit at tumakbo pabalik."

ang cuuuuuuutttttteeeee!! sabi ko sa isip ko.

Gabe na pala. Tumayo ako at pumunta sa Hotel. Nag order ako ng dinner ko at kumain.

habang kumakain ako, tumitingin ako sa paligid.. Seeing a group of friends, at ang naka catch ng attention ko? yung dalawang couple na para mga mid 50s na or 60s. And sweet nila.

I looked away kasi parang papatak nanaman ang luha sa aking mata. I hurriedly finished my food and went to my room.

I took a shower and dressed up. Iinom ako ngayong gabe. Just this night. ilalabas ko lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman ko.

Pumunta ako sa isang bar sa resort and went directly to the bar counter.

"What's yours ma'am?" tanong ng bartender.

"uhm... beer.. any beer will do."

at binigyan nya ako ng beer. Uminom ako ng uminom hanggang sa marami na akong nainom at feeling ko lasing na ako.

No! this can't be! hindi ako madaling malasing kasi malakas ang toleration ko sa beer.

haaay! bahala na nga! uminom pa ako. Until I got bored and walked to the beach habang my baon akong beer.

Umupo ako sa seashore while drinking. Parang nahihilo na ako..

Umiyak ako doon. nag sisisigaw! iyak lang ako ng iyak.

When suddenly, my lumapit na lalaki saakin. tumabi sya at kinausap nya ako..

I know this voice... No! lasing lang ako kaya akala ko tong lalaking to eh sya parin.

Hayy nako! inubos ko ang laman ng bote at tumayo na at umalis. Ilang hakbang palang eh natumba na ako.Gosh! lasing na nga ako. 

Tumayo ako ulit at naglakat, natumba na talaga ako at tuluyan nang nawalan ng malay. But someone catch me. At nawalan na talaga ako ng malay.