He makes me smile...

Fresh start

Renesmee's P.O.V:
"Happy Birthday!!!" Everyone shouts as as I walk into DeShaun's house. It my 32nd birthday, it would have been DeShaun's 34th birthday today too..This is the first birthday party I had since DeShaun's death.

I hug everyone that had come, my birthday was at DeShaun's mothers house, we had done two of his birthdays by just having normal dinner with D12 and his family along with me and Marcus at his home.

"Hey!" I smile and hug my niece and nephew there mother was my older sister who had passed away a few years back along with my baby brother, my dad and mum. I had both adopted them and they both lived with me. Their mother was my half sister but we were very close. My dad died of cancer before I was born so I didn't know him and my mom got married to Marcus's dad and I was gifted with two amazing half brothers and a half sister. I had only one brother left now and the rest of my family were gone. Whenever someone would ask me about my dad I would always mention Marcus's dad, he was the one that took care of me like I was his own, but I lost him too.

"You like it Aunt Nessie?" Medow asked, she was my younger niece she was 15 years old.

"I love it! Thank you my babies." I give them each a kiss.

"Where you're uncle Marcus?" I ask them both.

"He's somewhere around, he bought his girlfriend too." King says, he was my older nephew, he just turned 17. Their dad worked in California and he was a dj, he would come to Detroit a few times and stay with his kids, but then would have to go back.

"He bought her too?" I sigh. Sieana was my brothers girlfriend...I hated her so fucking much, she was a rich spoilt daddys princess.

"Come on aunt Nessie.." King laughs. I roll my eyes and walk toward Mrs Holton.

"Hello, Mrs Holton." I smile.

"Oh, darling. Happy birthday!" She embraces me in a hug. DeShaun had left her his mansion, so this was her home now. "How have you been?" She asks stroking my hair.

"I've been better." I smile my fake smile. Lie..I've been worse since his death. I would have huge headaces which would cause me to take a lot of pills...I wouldn't be able to sleep at night so I would take pills. I went to rehab once when I overdosed last year. King had found me and took me to the hospital and I was later submitted to a rehab facility. Once I was out, it started again...these sleeping pills and pain killers are my life..

"DeShaun would have been 34.." She smiles. I look down at he floor.

"Would you excuse me?" I say, Mrs Holton nods in response. I place my drink on the table and walk down the foyer and exit to the garden.

I sit on the outside lounge chairs that's infornt of the pool. This was not how it's supposed to be..Everyone was suppose to be here for DeShaun not me.

"You're missing your own party." I look up and see Marshall walk towards me, he was dressed in a dark pair of blue jeans and had a black shirt with a beanie. He looked so sexy! He had lost a lot of weight since DeShaun's death. But what was he doing here? Mrs Holton told me he was at rehab.

"Doesn't feel right.." I smile up at him. He takes a seat across from me on the outside lounge chairs.

"We all need to move on Renesamee.." Marshall sighs, he remembered my name.

"I don't want to.." Tears start to form and I look away.

"I don't want to aswell...He was my best friend since we were kids.." Marshall sighs. This must be so hard for him. "But we have to move on..Doody wouldn't have wanted this." Marshall lifts my face up with his chin. "He wouldn't have wanted us to be upset for the rest of our lives." He sighs.