Stronger

Chapter 4: Forgiveness

*At the airport*

 ''Yes, I have to go London, are there any tickets available?'', I say, ''yes there are, the plain departures in an hour, you'll be able to make that one.'' ''Thank you'', I say s she pulls the ticket in my hand. Luckily, I've been on airports before, Harry used to take me to lots of places, I think. While there appears a smile on my face. I walk down to a desk and ask where I need to go, ''yes, m'am, you have to go through those gates and you'll see the place where you’ll need to board the plaine'', some lady says friendly. ''Thank you'' I reply even friendlier. I walk down to the gate as I wonder what the hell I was doing. This better work out, I think. As I arrive at the gates and show my passport and tickets I walk to the plain. ''Let the journey begin'' I say, as I walk to my seat.

After 30 minutes of flying I wake up and realise we’ve already landed to the ground. My nerves aregetting to best of me as I started to wonder where in the hell I would find Harry. He’d probably be at home in his appartment, hanging out with one of the boys or something. As my mind is wandering, people start unbuckling and I do the same, I take my small bag of luggage and I walk out of the plane. Surprisinly enough it wasn’t as crowded as I used to picture it. Heathrow was a  kind of empty right now, with a few people marking their footprints on it. I need to go through a few security checks as I walk to the train station. I decide it's best if I go straight to his house where he lives with the other boys. I take the metro to Northern London which comes near the station where I have to be, I feel my heart beating out of my chest. I quickly step out of the crowded metro, walking to the entrance of the station. When I finally arrive there I only had to figure out which way to go. I figure it would be best to go left, as I remember from being there before. I walk to the left as I see a few girls doing the same behind me. Where they following me? I wonder. They must’ve figured I was seeing Harry again and they must’ve been hoping to meet him, desperately trying to chase me. When their attention was focused off of me, I decide to make my run for it. I can't let them ruin my moment, nor Harry would be pleased to see me and all those fans. After a few minutes I arrived, I just can't believe what I am seeing, it was his apparment block.. right in front of me. What was I supposed to do? I shouldn’t do this, I think as I entere the gate in front of me. I open it with the key Harry once gave me and the bouncer gave me a friendly, welcoming ‘’hello’’ as I walk towards the entrance of the building. He must’ve remembered me from before as he doesn't even bother to not let me in. I enter a big hall, just as I remembered. I walk to a big wooden door and I realise the moment was finally there. I had to ring the door, hoping the seducive curly-brown-haired boy would open the door. I ring the door twice, but nobody opens. After a few seconds I head somebody saying ‘’coming, coming.’’ I figure it's Harry, as I recognized his raspy voice out of thousands. He doesn't even bother looking who it is and he opens the door in a quick move. He clearly didn't expect to see me as the look on his face expressed. ‘’B-B-Brooke.. you’re.. here?’’ he says trying to hide his watery eyes by rubbing his hands over them. I remain sillent as he comes closer to me and hugs me tightly. Thoughts were running through my mind, as I stand there, frozen in time, not even hugging the boy I love so much back. ‘’I’ve missed you’’ he whispers quietly into my ear. He realises I wasn’t going to answer any time soon as he said ‘’come in, let me get you something to warm up with.’’ I want to say he can do that for me anytime, but furious as I am I still remain sillent, but I follow him into his big living room. ‘’You can sit down if you want, I’ll make you some tea’’, he says  but instead of sitting down on the coach I follow him into the kitchen and I sit down on the counter. ‘’Alright, you can sit here if you want’’, he says in an awkward way. I still don't say a word, but after a few minutes I can't bear the sillence any longer so I say the words that I’ve been longin’ to say for so long: ‘’Why did you leave me?’’… he remains sillent for some time, but then he replies ‘’I-I just couldn’t.. I’m sorry, b-but I’ll make it up to you, I promise.’’ I clearly didn't see that one coming as I remain sillent again. For a moment I truly believe him and he caught me staring at him. He smiled, saying ‘’why are you looking at me like that?’’, I look down, because I felt caught and he saw what I was doing. He walks over to me and grabs my chin and lifts it up close to his head. ‘’Don’t hide, I know you’re better then that’’, he says in a cheeky way. I can't help but stare in his green emerald eyes, which doesn't go unnoticed by him. He moves his head closer to mine, with only a few inches away from my mounth as I push him away with my hands on his chest. ‘’Please, don’t’’ I say while turning around in an attempt to walk away. I am trying not to break down in tears on our first time seeing each other after such a rough break up. Well I can't exactly call it a break up, as he just left me without saying anything, but I still picture it as if it was. I decide I can't walk away, so I turn around and walk towards him, facing him right in the eye as I said ‘’how could you do this to me, Harry? What have I done wrong? Was It all joke? Am I a joke to you? I don’t understand! You should’ve left me alone if the first place if you knew this was going to happen. You jerk’’ I scream as I punched his chest. I was surprised he let me do that and didn’t take control of me, I punch him a few times, but after that, there was nothing left but tears streaming down my face. I carefully sit down on the ground as he bends over to hold me. He grabs my head and strokes my hair. He pulls his head close to mine and said ‘’I’m sorry.’’