Stockholm Syndrome (BECHLOE)

Chapter 8

Chloe pov

After someone brought Beca away, Aubrey helps me to stand up. I put on a sweater and feel my wounds start to burn.

"Chloe, you totally got her on your hook. I don't know how you made it, but well done!"

That is all I ever wanted. Aubrey to be proud. Well, I didn't finish my test yet, but she's already proud. But why does it feels so bad? I should be happy, but instead of this I feel horrible. I am such a bad person. What am I doing to Beca? Why I still let Aubrey have control over me? Suddenly everything comes up and I start yelling at Aubrey without wanting it.

"Did you have to do this? All my life I did everything for you and what are you doing for me? Well, I have got a house to live in and food and clothes, but I got nothing else! You only let me work for you. You used me for everything, but you never asked me what I want! I always had to do what you want and..."

"Chloe, calm down! You can't think straight. You took too much painkillers."

She rudely interrupts me, but tries to be nice. I take a deep breath and try to calm myself down, but I am so angry with her, I can't explain why.

"You...you...you just.."

Suddenly I loose control and start to cry. She lays her arms around me and holds me tight. She cares about the wounds at my back, but they still hurt.

"Everything is okay. You should take a break. Just for today. After tomorrow everything will be alright. You will do the test and I you won't pass it. You're the best!"

She lays her hands on my cheeks and whipes away the tears. I nod and she lets me go. I walk slowly and insecure. Tired of everything, filled with pain. I stop in front of my room, but I don't enter it. Without knowing what I do I go over and enter Beca's room. She's sitting on the ground, what confuses me at first. Than I go one step closer and sit down next to her.

"I am sorry that I ran away."

"No. It's not your fault. Aubrey planned this. You never had a chance. But that's not the reason why I am here. I...I love you."

Beca starts to smile, but also tears filling her eyes.

"What's up?"

I ask her confused.

"Why are you so complicated?"

"I don't know. I am so sorry. It's all new to me. This feeling confuses me so much. I tried to hide it, because I am not allowed to feel it, but I love you."

"How can I know that this isn't just another lie?"

"I never lied to you. I needed time to figure my feelings out and understand it, but now I am sure!"

"Why you hurt me again and again? It is a vicious circle. It is like food. When I burned my tongue on my food it make me realize, that sometimes the ones you love, hurt you most. I can't stop loving you."

Beca says, making me realize how much she loves me.

"This are the rules. I need to do what Aubrey tells me and I tried to get over how bad I want you so much. I am so sorry. I understand if you hate me now. I mean I am such a bad person, but I really love you and you need to know that. Nothing gets me like you. It feels like I can fly when I am with you. I never fellt this way before. You make me feel like I am out of my mind. Beca I love you more than everything else! After the first time I saw you I was fallen, but it's alright, because I fallen for you. You walked straight into my heart and stayed there. Even if it risks our lives, I wanna run away with you. I would leave everything to be with you. You and I is all I need. Do you want to run away with me?"

What did I said? I can't run away. Well, I can but Aubrey will find me and running away with Beca is even harder. I need to control myself. I can't. Beca need to be out her. She doesn't deserves this. I am not good for her, but I am the only one who could get her out here.

"I wanne run away with you. I would follow you wherever you will go. You hurt me, I know, but this can't change my feelings. Chloe, I have no control. I am all yours! I will never leave you, if you want me to stay, so let's run away!"

"You would really do this?"

I ask unbelievable.

"Sure I would. I would be a privilege to run away with you."

Now I can't hold it back. I start to cry and just hug her. I bury my face in her hair and hold her tight.

"I really love you, Beca Mitchell."

She goes out of the hug to kiss me. I don't know what I am doing. My emotions are all coming up and I feel kinda high. Beca is like a drug. I drag her over to the bed and take off her shirt. She pulls me closer to kiss me again. Careful she takes off my shirt and involves me again into a kiss. She kisses my neck and I start to giggle. Softly her hands wander down and open my pants. Suddenly the door opens and I turn around. My eyes widen as I see Aubrey standing in the door. I can see pure hate in her eyes. She will kill me or Beca or both of us. Fast she comes over and pulls me away from Beca. I try to defend myself, but Aubrey is stronger. Beca hurries to follow us.

"Let her go!"

She screams at Aubrey, but Aubrey doesn't mind. Than Beca takes her arm und pulles her back.

"I said let her go!"

Aubrey slaps her in the face and pushes me out of the room. She closes the door behind us. I hear Beca screaming from the inside. Than Aubrey gives me a view, that totally says what she is thinking. She will kill me. This is the end.

"What the hell is going on?"

"I nearly found out where her brother is, but you had to barge in and now we have nothing at all!"

"So having sex with her helps us to find her brother? I am sorry I didn't know it. Maybe I should also try it."

I hate when she has this sarcasm in her voice. She always does it.

"You said I have to do it! I only did what you said!"

"I said once, bitch!"

Did she called me bitch? Did she really called me bitch! What is wrong with her? I hate her!

"Oh I am sorry, I didn't get it. Why you're screaming at me? All the time I do what you want, but it's always wrong! What do you want?"

"Nothing...It's my fault Chloe. Everything is okay. You will do your test tomorrow and than you can do whatever you want. For now, just go into your room."

I turn away and go into my room. I should be happy about what she said, but there's something wrong. That was too easy. Aubrey has a plan and that means nothing good. After I hear her going away I want to go over to look if everything is okay with Beca. I want to open the door, but it doesn't work. Aubrey locked it from the outside. Why she is doing this? I start to slap against the door, but it doesn't open. Than I turn around and start to slap the wall. I wish it was Aubrey. I could kill her right now. I don't even know why I feel this way, but she is such a bitch. I don't have the right to think this. She became my family. She took me away from the street. She gave me a home after this jerks raped me. Aubrey gave me a house, food, clothes, love, but it's not what I wanted. I hate her. I am not allowed to hate her. Without her I would be dead. Well, with her I am nearly dead. With her I'm always heading straight for the edge. If she wants she could kill me or hurt me, like she always does. She wants me to be perfect, but that is not my life! That's not what my life should be like! I feel the despair coming up. I never knew what I wanted. All i knew was that I am not happy, but ever since I know Beca I know exactly what I want. I want her. I was always expected to feel nothing and that love is wrong, but she changed my mind. I never felt like this before. She showed me that love is real. She lifts me up and takes me to another world. She makes me feel alive and I couldn't ask for anything better. I need to take her out of this. She doesn't deserves this! I will bring her out of this! After my test tomorrow I will run away with her.