My Head Says NO but My Heart says Yes

Chapter 5 Home Trouble

Jason and I finally get home and I soon dash up stairs. I go into the bathroom and take off my clothes. I open up my door and Jason is sitting on my bed drunk as a door nail;with only his boxers on! Before I said anything I could not help myself but to think in my mind " HOLY HELL HIS ABS ARE SO DETIALED! OH THAT SIX PACK!! "

Jason soon looks at me and says "Put on a show.... GOSH, your so sexy; I need to get me some of that. Come over here baby and put it on me."

I then hissed back " UHHH... HELL NO!!!! JASON!!!, GET OUT OF MY ROOM!!"

He hops up and grabs me and pushes me on the bed and says " YOU WILL GIVE ME WHAT I WANT!.!"

Jason soon pushes his lips next to mine. I then get my hand and slap him across the face.

HE hissed at me and said "YOU BITCH!"

and I hissed back "YOU DUSH BAG!!!! NOW GET THE HELL OUT OF MY ROOM!!!"

I  pushed him out of my room and slammed the door. I soon put on my pj's and started to cry a little and then thought to myself ...."I MISS MY DAD I want to go home but I know I cant I know.

Soon my phone buzzed it was Miranda she said "hey!!"

I then replied back "hey ....waz up??"

My phone soon buzzed with her reply " Getting ready for bed , U??"

I replied back " Same.... well I am really tired i will txt you tomorrow ..... and oh r u doing anything tomorrow?"

Then my phone buzzed Miranda replied " Nahhh... nothing to do except be bored and stare at the wall all day... Y ??

I answered back " Would you like to come over and hang and spend the night??? also dont forget your swim suit.

Miranda quickly replied back " yahhh!!! that would be awesome!!! I just asked my mom and she said it was ok, .. so yaaayyyy!!!! :D XD

I typed back "Awesome .. I will pick you up at 10:30 A.M tomorrow .. ok... TTYL BYE .. C YA TOMORROW!! :D XD XD  :D

She quickly answered back " K.. ttyl BYEEEE ... C YA SOON xD :D!!!!!

I smiled and turned my phone off then put it on charge. I sat in the dark on my bed just thinking of what will come tomorrow, still worried about Jason ... just worried about how he will act around me?? Will he remember about what he tried to pull last night and how I reacted to it or will he just act no different and hopefully just forget. but this doesn't help me no different ... I can't forget it ..I can't. This was a thing that I will have to try to forgive and forget, but I can forgive but I can't forget the home trouble he has caused to night. I just cant forget ; but honestly I think it is easier to forgive than to forget. I can't forget because the things that you see and expereince are harder to forget ... I can forget , I can forget ... but the truth is I can't forget and I dont think I can ever forget this... This was just something I can't change, can't undo, and can't chang physically..... I can't forget, I just can't ; but I can forgive, I can do that at least for my sake and for Jason's.