Star Fighter One Shots

I'm So Lucky

A Modern AU with some OC's Naomi and I came up with (mostly Naomi tho) ~ written by Naomi

I heard him start to hum a tune, I immediately recognized it from the times he had hummed it until I'd fallen asleep. I stripped down and jumped in the shower, quickly shampooing and conditioning my hair, hearing Hayden hum softly over the sound of the shower running. I scrubbed at my body and rinsed off, turning the water off and stepping out into the cold.

"Hey, Az, I'm gonna borrow one of your hoodies, okay? Its meant to rain later." My boyfriend, Hayden informed me from my bedroom. I dried my hair and body and got dressed, putting my hair into a low ponytail and walked out of the bathroom, greeted by the sight of Hayden sitting cross legged on my bed, humming and reading an old book.

"You look good..." I whispered, admiring him as he smiled and set the book down, patting the spot next to him, beckoning me to sit with him.

"So do you," he smiled and kissed my shoulder, pulling my hair free, raking his fingers through it as he spoke, "I love you, Sora,"
I froze. I've heard him say it so many times but I still have a hard time believing that he means it. He's so fu.cking beautiful, why can't I just love him like a normal person? I want to be able to hold and cherish him and tell him how perfect he is. What if one day he realized he wants more than this? More than me.. I don't know how to tell him how I feel. This is all so new and strange to me, sometimes when I try to push myself to say cute things I end up sounding ridiculous. "Az, you don't have to say it back, if it's too hard. It's okay. I can wait as long as it takes. Everything's okay." He entwines his hand with mine and looks up at me, bright green eyes full of emotion, one of the things I love most about him was his eyes, the way they showed so much emotion, leaving him open to anyone, but he never cared. I felt tears welling in my eyes, his thumb wiping a single tear that spilled, pulling me into his arms, whispering to me, humming that tune I knew so well. I tilted his chin up and kissed him softly, his hand coming up to rest on my cheek, kissing me back gently, smiling as I pulled away. "They'll love you, Az. I promise." Another kiss, just for a second. "And if they don't, well that's their loss. C'mon, Az, its time to go."
I stood up and grabbed the keys from the bedside drawer before he could

"I'm driving. It's dangerous out there, you could lose control of the car and crash it. 73% of crashes end are fatal, you could die." I lead him out the door and locked the door behind us, heading to the car. I held Hayden's arm as we walked.

"Az, what are you doing?" He giggled as I pulled him close.

"The ground is slippery, you could fall and hit your head. Head traumas can result in comas, comas patients aren't likely to ever wake up." I opened the car door for him and went around the other side to get it. I started the car and took the directions Hayden was giving me, arriving at his parents after a fifteen minute drive, his hand on my thigh, reassuring me silently the whole time. Ten minutes of sitting in the car, just trying to muster up the courage to open the door. Hayden sat patiently with me, holding my hand, playing with my hair. I take a deep breath and open the car door, hearing Nyx open his as well.

I close the door and feel Hayden entwine his fingers with mine, with a whisper of "its going to be okay, *aina," Another deep breath. I can do this. No I can't. I let go of Hayden's hand and turn to walk back to the car but I stop. If I leave, if I walk away from this, Hayden will realize what a terrible person I am, his parents will hate me and so will he. I clench my fists, forcing myself to be calm, knowing that if I leave right now, I may lose him. After a few moments I turn and see him smiling at me. He hasn't moved, he hasn't pushed me to, or gotten angry, he's waited for me, for my decision. I gulped and took a step forward, I wasn't going to let my stupid fu.cking anxiety ruin this for him. I love him. I'm going to do this, even if it kills me. Another few steps forward and I grab his hand, squeezing his fingers lightly, mentally preparing myself for what was to come. Maybe I should have worn something nicer. Hayden said this would do, but what if it doesn't? I should have dyed my hair back to black, they will probably think I look ridiculous with grey hair. No. Stop over thinking things. It'll be okay. Deep breath in deep breath out. We got to the door and Hayden knocked lightly. I squeezed his hand again, Hayden rubbing his thumb over mine. I looked over at him, getting lost in his eyes, nothing mattered right now.