I am on the verge of telling him that I love him and yes you might think that I am crazy but this is my true love in middle school so don't hate. I know that I don't really know him but if you have ever got the chance to love, you would say that you already know everything about your lover because it is love. I learned that love is love so when my friends Ana,Esmi,Mariah,and Celeste tell me that I am crazy I just ignore them and keep my feelings the same. They say that I get pretty annoying because all I do is just talk about him and I said that it is what you do when you are in love. They all said that I was still crazy ,but what do they know. They say that they just like the guys that they like,but I know it must be more.
Today I was walking out of gym and Sergio looked at me so many times and I think that there might be a real connection with us but we will see next week when I finally go and talk to him. I hope he likes me because I don't know what I would do if he didn't. If you think about it Sergio would have never been looking at me if his friend never heard that I said he was cute. So I thank her so much. My friends keep questioning that if she didn't tell him why would he be looking at me. But I never really listen to them especially when some of the stuff they say always put me down but I never say anything.
The only friends I really tell all the details to is Ana and Celeste. They expect who I am and I really love them for it. Esmi and Mariah except me to but I really trust Celeste and Ana more. Sometimes Esmi and Mariah judge me on what I say, but Celeste and Ana do the opposite sometimes. The only reason I tell them all of that stuff is because my sister Erika is always busy which I get but I never know when is the right time to text or call her. I am lonely at home because it is just me,my brother Carlos, and my mom. I don't really talk to my mom because my mom is really not that understanding. Most mom are understanding,but my mom is one of those mom's that think that boys are like a bomb thrown at you and blow you up. I wish she was a mom that supports me in all of my decisions that I make. I get that she doesn't want me to have s*x yet and I totally agree. I am not ready either way.
I hope that Sergio doesn't feel disappointed if he want to have s*x and I say no(when we're older). He just has to understand that I am just not ready, but when do boys ever understand. Well, I hope that Sergio is one of those guys that understands how a girl feels and a decision that a girl makes. We will see if we ever become even more than friends.
