FIX YOU

Chapter 1

"I don't love you!" he said and looked away not meeting my eyes. His back is facing me. I felt a tight grip around my chest, making my breaths put to on-hold for a moment.

"NO! Don't say that." I can no longer hold the hot liquid pouring down from my eyes. The pain I am feeling right now is unbearable. I know he doesn't mean what he has said.

"KC, I'm really sorry." He almost whispered but I heard it out loud.

"NO! NO! NO!" I sobbed. I shook my head as if by doing that everything will be back into its place. "Tell me you're just lying. This is only a joke right?" But he bowed his head. No, this is not happening.

I can hear gasps and small whispers from the people around us. I know all eyes are on us but I don't care.

"Look into my eyes babe." I went near him and hold his arm. "Please, tell me this is just a prank. Please, I am begging you. I love you so much babe, just please don't do this to me."

He took away his arm from my grip and for the first time in my life I felt my world crashed down on the words he said.

"I DON'T LOVE YOU KC! I NEVER LOVED YOU AND I NEVER WILL!"

I opened my eyes from the nightmare I have just been trough. Not gain. Ilang beses naba akong dinadalaw ng bangungot na iyon? Three? Five? Ten? I lost count already, and everytime I have that nightmare I feel like it is the first I have experienced it kahit na ilang beses ng naging panauhin ko ang ganoong eksena sa panaginip ko. Agad akong bumangon at umupo sa gilid ng kama. Kinapa ko ang sentido ko at hinilut-hilot ng marahan hanggang sa mawala ang sakit ng ulo ko. Halos apat na buwan na ang nakakalipas pero parang kahapon lang ang mga pangyayaring iyon.

"Wake up Kathryn! Get a life and move on. Don't waste your time sa mga taong walang kwenta katulad niya." Paalala ko sa sarili ko habang marahang tinatapik-tapik ang pisngi ko.

Pero kahit anong pagkumbinsi sa aking sarili ay hindi ko parin maiwasan ang isipin siya. Hindi sapat ang apat na buwan para gumaling ang sugat na ginawa niya. At hindi parin sapat ang maikling panahon nayon para kalimutan ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya.

We have been together for almost a year. It's supposed to be our first anniversary that time but before i could greet and surprise him, he dropped the bomb. not only to my face but to the whole population of St. Hyacinth High. That time not only my heart is broken, but also my pride is wounded.

Hindi ko namalayang umiiyak na pala ako sa pagbalik sa alaala ng masakit na kahapon. I hastily wiped my tears. He doesn't deserve any of my tears anymore. I looked to my bedside table, 5 am pa pala. As much as I want to go back to sleep ay wala na ring saysay dahil baka bumalik lang ang bangungot na yon. I decided to take a bath that early para mahimasmasan ako. Mas maganda narin siguro ito tutal it's the first day of class, mas mabuting maaga ako. Maybe, just maybe a new environment will lessen the feelings I have right now.

I decided to transfer to another school. Hoping that it will help me forget the bad memories my old school has given to me. Sa nangyari sa akin sa dati kong school ay wala na akong maihaharap sa kanila. No one knows kung anong pinagdaanan ko after the break up. Laking pasasalamat ko lang at meron akong mga tapat na kaibigan at kapamilya na dinamayan ako noong mga panahong halos mawalan na ako ng pag asa. He has been my life ever since I met him. Kaya noong hiniwalayan niya ako ay para naring kinuha ang buhay ko.

Sa nangyari sa akin natuto na ako. At ngayon hindi ko na hahayaang mangyari ulit iyon sa akin.