If You Knew

Heart Ache & Starbucks

Kobe's P.O.V

"Are you sure you don't want to come?" My friend Alexa said as she pouted, apparently this is the party of the year and everyone is going. Everyone but me.

"No Alexa, same answer as last time, besides he's probably going to be there."
I don't even know why she tries, she knows he's going, probably making out with some brunette while drunk off vodka.
I hurts just thinking about it.

"So, you don't need to socialize with him. He probably won't even notice you at all." She said bluntly as she shrugged while leaning against my desk.

"Jee thanks."

"Oh Kobe lighten up a bit, who knows maybe he won't be the man-whore he is tonight." I could see the doubtful look in her eyes, she knows he can't stay 6-inches within a girl without mouth raping her innocence.

"I highly doubt that. There's nothing you can say to change my mind either so don't bother trying." I said as I was drawing sad faced emojis and broken hearts. Yeah, I'm that kid

We can go to Starbucks afterwords. She said as she held a 40$ Starbucks gift card, waving it in my face. Ha! There's no way I'm saying yes to that, how dumb does she think I am?

"IM FUCKING IN!" I said as I jumped out of my seat, drawing attention from my peers.

Later

"No fair you lied to me!" I said as her 2011 red Chevy pulled up to a 3 story mansion with a bunch of different cliques I there own usual spot. The cheerleaders in the bounce house, the jocks standing in front of the bounce house watching the cheerleaders jumping up and down, emos on the roof, fangirls reading twilight out loud on the lawn, and the normals associating inside.

She lowered the volume on the radio and said "Well I knew you could never turn down Starbucks, but I'll tell you what. You will stay the night with me and Desi in this god forsaken mansion, and you can have the card. Deal?"

"Ughh fine!" Curse my love for Starbucks.

..............

It's was insane. I think everyone is drunk, Desi eventually showed up and let's just say, wow she looked like a four dollar hooker. But no sign of Ryder.

Currently I was sitting on the couch being anti-social like always. To my right there was someone on the phone, apparently a freshman got pregnant. And to my left there was twin people making out and let's just say, there was spit all over my cheek.

I got super grossed out so I ran struggling to find a bathroom, I need to find I bathroom now or else somebody is going to be wearing my left overs from taco-tuesday.

After a while I gave up, I felt better now that no one was sucking faces right next to me.
I just want to go home and snuggle up to my life size pillow of CALUM FUCKING HOOD.

I was currently walking around the mansion looking for a room to sleep in because remember the deal. Ehh ehhhh, no okay.

It felt like even more people crashed because literally, people were getting trampled. More people are drunk too, I'm guessing one of the jocks drugged some girl because she was trying give a lap dance to a potted plant.

I eventually found a hall full of rooms, I felt more uncomfortable as it is because all of those rooms are filled with moans and screaming.

I heard some talking in the room a few doors behind me. Lets investigate shall we. *smirk*

As I slowly crept up to the door, I was starting to get worried. Because anything could be behind this door.

"I love you."

I looked through the cracked open part of the door. And there Ryder and some girl payed on a bed full of alcohol.

He doesn't love her, right? I kept thinking that thought over and over again. I couldn't help but start crying helplessly as I ran down the hallway. Life doesn't matter now that I will never have a chance with him. Who am I kidding, I never had a chance.

I just want it to all end....