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Define Depression

I've been through depression. Two years I struggled with Depression. It's not exactly easy to get over.

But I got over it in somewhat a cheesy way. No not saying how I'm just leaving it like that. Every person has their own way of thinking exactly what depression is. Without looking at the dictionary excuse you..

As how I exactly define it.. I guess it's somewhat dark in a way. Somewhat not exactly "coco". Because yes I'm going to define it through my point of view.

Depression:

Depression to me is feeling lonely feeling dead inside. As you do want to talk to a person but you don't exactly want to annoy them with your problems.

Depression sometimes has you thinking about life. Getting way too logical and overthinking. Questioning every single thing. Coming to some facts then the facts turn negative and they get you down.

You see someone happy it just disgusts you and you somewhat envy them in such an unexplainable way. Seeing someone with a person tends to also disgust you and you just want to lay down look at the ceiling and think about it. Why? Why is the big word that I happen to use. Why am I depressed? Why am I here? Why is life like this? So cruel and unfair?

Then you go on and listen to music. But both happy music and music to play when feeling under the weather won't help. It just makes you feel worst. As you finally understand the messages. And you relate and you just want to let it all out.

Harming is another thing. Harming is a touchy subject. I don't exactly want to go down in details how I let it all out. I didn't draw, write, talk it out. I did harm myself and it was stupid. I suggest something. Don't harm yourself. You'll regret it. Talk to a person. Watch youtube.. Do something else besides hurting yourself...