The Love Diaries

The Love Diaries

If I’m the princess, can you be my prince? We can live happily ever after.

-Yours truly,

The Princess

          A baby cries her first cry from just being born. The first born to her loving parent, she is a beautiful baby girl. The princess is born.  After 8 months her cousin Jasmine came into the cruel world. A year later the princess’ sister, Ella, was brought to her. The princess loved her sister very much. About 4 years after the princess’ birth another cousin, Mandy, was born. Mandy grew to be a stubborn brat! It’s the princess’ 10th birthday. A birthday she will never forget. Foe her birthday she wants to be loved and feel beautiful. But instead a first heartbreak was gifted to her. She lost her best friend. Her best friend was always there for her, but she hated one of the princess’ other friends. The princess invited both to her sleepover. Only to find out the two of the girls became best friends. The princess was all alone and hated her birthday! To this day it is the worst birthday she has ever had! Later that year the family moved churches, they had to start all over. The princess and Jasmine became the bestest friends after that. The 4 girls (Princess, Ella, Jasmine, and Mandy) really enjoyed the church! But when the princess was 11 years old, (going into 6th grade) the church told them to leave, the people didn’t want the kids there any longer. So, the family left, without saying their goodbyes. The family went on to a new church. There they really loved everyone there! The princess, before she left her first church in 1st grade she promised not to have any crushes on anyone except for John. On the first Sunday they were at the new church, she caught eye of the cutest boy ever! She fell in love right there. She told herself over and over again not to fall for such a guy. Cody is his name, he was a player. As the princess tried and tried not fall for him she fell deeper and deeper in love. After her 13th birthday her church’s youth group went on a trip. On the trip she noticed at least 3 guys smitten with her. 1 of them though, caught her attention, James. On the way back they held hands in private. She thought she was finally over Cody, but kept comparing Cody to James. Cody finally texted the princess to tell her how he felt about her, how he really liked her! The princess realized that her love for Cody was stronger than how she felt about James. She broke up with James to be with Cody. After about 3 weeks they broke up. Not really sure why though. Then they got back together after about 2 days. After 3 days of being together he broke the princess’ heart. He dumped her for another girl that had no feelings for him at all. She cried and cried every night! He took her heart and ripped it into pieces. While all that was going on no one knew about the princess dating the guys except for Joy. While the break up was tearing the princess apart, Joy told all the princess’ secrets. The princess couldn’t believe such a person a best friend too would do that to her. The princess picked up what was left of her heart and carried on like nothing happened. Soon to find out a boy named Kevin came along and picked up her heart and held it really close. After he healed her broken heart he dropped it (dumped her). He through it on the ground and it broke like a glass plate. She realized he wasn’t worth the tears and moved on. She was hurt though, she had no friends besides Jasmine. She felt uncared for and unloved. She was ready to give up. The night she was ready to give up was Cody’s birthday. She decided to txt him after 2 months of ignoring him. She told him happy birthday. He was glad to hear from her. They texted that whole night. She never gave up. The princess was happy again. Her heart was within Cody’s arms, her best friend. She hopes he won’t break it. Because people seem to forget they are holding something that is delicate and tend to drop it. As the two of them became closer and closer so did her and Jasmine. Come to find out one day at restaurant Jasmine told the princess that she didn’t like her. Jasmine didn’t want to see the princess again. The princess ran to the bathroom crying her heart out! The princess has a hard time trusting people now. The princess closed up and started to again, think about giving up. Along came Candy! They became the bestest friends ANYONE could ask for! Cody ended up getting a girlfriend. The princess was jealous. She did nothing though. She felt worthless to even tell him how she felt. As Cody told stories on how they hold hands and she lays her head on his shoulder, the princess cried herself to sleep. Cody didn’t realize that he was holding onto the princess’ heart by a thread. A few months past and secrets come out and Cody and Candy become the bestest friends! After a few more months Cody notices the Princess posting on her account, how she has  crush but he doesn’t lnow it. Cody asks the princess and they spent most of the night talking about how she is in love with him.  A few days later Cody tells the princess, how him and his girlfriend shared his first kiss. The princes didn’t know what to do she was soo sad. After 5 days the princess asks Cody if he will go to a comedy with her. He agrees. She wrote “I love you” on a paper and didn’t realize Cody was watching her. He grabbed the paper and read it starring at it forever. She saw him put his finger over top of it and then slowly brought his finger up to his lips. Later, she asked him why and he said that it meant a lot to him that she told him that she loved him. And later when they were done talking, the greatest thing that was ever said to her was, “I love you.” Cody had her heart so close to his! Later, the worst mistake came. She told him everything about how she loves him and that day he told her that he will NEVER date her again and for her to move on. The princess’ heart was again dropped. She felt worthless and ugly as ever. She felt like a mistake and unloved! The princess dreams of death now, she fear she will never be loved back from the person that means the world to her. She cries every night cause there is nothing she can do to make people love her. She tries to put back her heart, she has to protect it this time from being dropped AGAIN. She is still best friends with Cody, but is upset for now her thoughts about suicide are bigger than ever before…….

          3 days after the big heart break the princess hasn’t talked to Cody in 2 days. All her friends are proud of her. Candy talks with Cody asking him how he can hurt the princess like that cause she is his best friend! He replies back by saying, “She is still! She’s getting annoying.” The princess is trying to hold back tears as for he has never said, “you’re my best friend.” And because her “best friend” called her annoying. She dreams of just one person being nice and loving to her. She asks, “why does my heart keep breaking?” She still cries and wishes to just end the sadness. The princess continues though. She asks why won’t Cody just tell her how he feels? Why is he saying/stabbing her life?

          A week after the heart break, four and half days without texting him she was so relived! Sunday came and of course the princess is so excited, as always to see charming and dashing Cody. She got to hug him. Her heart raced as her arms wrapped around him, he had his arms crossed. She laid her head on his shoulder for a deeper hug and said, “Hey there” He replied saying, “Hey there, princess!” He was not expecting a hug at all. After a while the princess needs to talk to Cody alone. Candy wasn’t there so Jasmine and the princess’ other friend Jonie helped. Jonie was able to get Cody and the princess together, while she and Jasmine left. The princess quickly grabbed Cody’s hand and pulled him a room where they were alone. Of course the princess wanted to push him up against the wall and kiss him, but instead she pushed him in the chair. She said, “A little birdie told me you said I was annoying.” Cody says, “I did not!” “Wednesday, you did.” “who is this birdie?” “Fine I will tell you!” “Is it Kenny, Jonie’s brother?” “Nope! It’s Candy.” “Oh! I did not say you were annoying! I was saying what you did was annoying.” By now the princess should have sit down and grabbed his hands to tell him, but instead she stayed standing starring into his beautiful eyes and said, “About that….” She looked away for she was so in love. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to be like that. Apparently I get clingy when it comes to… yeah, it’s my first time (Cody knew what she was talking about).” “It’s alright, princess! Don’t worry about it!” The princess should have asked him for a hug but she didn’t and instead they started at each other’s eyes what felt like forever. Cody had his dreamy eyes staring into the princess’. Cody had is sexy grin going on for a while. Until he broke it saying, :Oh god! Your face!” Whatever that means….. Princess thought something was wrong. But maybe Cody is finally falling for her. As they were leaving the room Cody whispers into the microphone, “Princess, I am your master!” with his sexy grin. Princess can’t stand to look at him any longer and had to look away.  She wishes she hugged him, sat by him, kissed him, held his hand, touched him, or even stared into his eyes one last time! He is perfect to her! She hopes he never want to lose her, the same way she would die if she lost him. To be continued……..