The Love Diaries

The best day of my life!

Best day of my life!!!!

Cody and I were washing chairs and hanging out. And like flirting, we sprayed each other with the water hose, we whacked each other with the water cloths, we had a wrestling match and I sorta kicked him in the balls, and he went down to the ground I felt sooo bad!! I wanted to like tell him how I was sorry and felt REALLY bad. I should have hugged him but sadly I didn't. after a bit then he texted me saying how he wanted to hug me. I started having anxiety attacks! My stomach was hurting and bubbling I was really hyper, my heart was beating so fast I couldn't breath! Then after trying to be alone together it finally happened. We stared at each other scared and nervous for what to come. I felt getting closer and closer and then I walked away. I was sad, but I got so many butterflies I didn't know what to do. After awhile he was looking at my phone so I went over there and I like had my head on his shoulder looking over it. Our eyes met a few times and I smiled while he just smiled back. Finally we had to separate cause people were coming. All a while we kept making eye contact and smiling. We made little bumps with our arms and sometimes our hips. Finally, I went to throw something away and he came around the corner we met eye to eye and of course he had the prettiest eyes ever! As I looked at him he told me to back up, I backed up and he put his arms around me squeezing me, after soo much anxiety I wrapped my arms around him, my heart probably stopped beating I was so excited! It was a pretty long hug, and of course he has a girlfriend or else we probably would've kissed cause we met eye to eye so many times gosh, the butterflies I kept getting were so overwhelming I had to look away. When he finally let go I was like soo sad, I felt safe and my anxiety stopped. My anxiety came back after he let go, it hasn't him away yet and it's been a few hours. I honestly should've told him in person how I loved him, I don't know why I didn't, probably cause he has a girlfriend and I was afraid I was going to get a heartbreak. I think that it was the best day of my life! Best memory I have ever had! Way to start out my birthday week! :) June 1st is a day I will gladly remember! And even though he will never want me as a girlfriend just knowing I'm his best friend is the greatest thing ever! I hope we are able to get alone often, it was really special and I felt sooo safe! I felt no one could ever hurt me! He is like idk how to explain! Now that I'm away from him, I don't feel safe, I feel like it will be the easiest thing now to get hurt. He's so strong and nice! And I'm going on and on about how great he is. I just, can't help it, idk how to explain.

This was also out of place, but the princess really needed to talk about it.