What It's Like to be Popular?

Chapter 4

Wait! What is it he never told me! I thought we told each other everything!

    "Max what do you need to tell me?"
    "Um well you see..."
    "Max what! What would you never tell your BEST FRIEND!"
I could feel the tears starting in my eyes. But I still don't understand. Reading Max's face is really hard. I still tried so hard.

   Then his phone rang. It was his mom she said he had to go home. I was still really mad and at the same time I was sad. I couldn't explain it.

    I went out to my balcony to say goodbye to him and walked back inside. I closed the doors and locked them. After I watched some pretty little liars I went to go take a shower.

    When I stepped into the warm water I wished I could stay in there forever. That if I was there long enough I would turn into a water droplet and just go down the drain. I've already tried so I decided not to and scrub sweat pea shampoo onto my scalp and hair. Then I rinsed it off then put some clean and clear oil free face was all over my face. I took some sweat pea conditioner and smeared all over my hair. I also grabbed a aqua colored lufa and some body wash. Before even touching soap to my body I fell down crying. I fell. I collapsed. I was bawling.

I felt like my only friend betrayed me.

I felt like a worthless piece of crap that nobody cared about me
That I had no reason to live anymore.

I went to the kitchen late that night. My dad was sleeping. I could hear him snoring away in a very deep sleep.

I opened a drawer. Grabbed a nice and then started cutting myself.

I know I don't know what he would keep from me. I'm his friend. We are best friends. We have been since we we in 7th grade! Other than him I have no friends.

I got two cuts into my wrist. Then it started gushing blood. It hurt a lot. So I stopped a least for that night.

I ran to my bathroom turned in the sink and tried to make it stop bleeding. But it just kept coming. I felt my self about to pass out. I managed somehow to stay awake and to clean all the blood off the floor. Both in the kitchen and the bathroom.

I went to sleep still having a little blood here and there come out of my cuts. I was afraid I wasn't going to wake up.

The next morning I was a little relieved that I did wake up. But just a little. I had school today and I need to figure out what happened to Max. I need to know why he would lie to his best friend.

As I was getting ready something weird happened. My dad was gone but it was only 6:30 in the morning. He normally leaves at 7:00. Well ok strange...

  Any way, I just was getting ready my daily morning routine and I think you know what it is. So when I was done I had to drive to school. Yay...