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Ignore

   Ignore: to refuse to take notice of or acknowledge; disregard intentionally.

I lay in my bed that night, trying to sleep, but all I do is stare at the ceiling. I wonder if I should have left Ash like that. Maybe I was too rude, what if he never wants to see me again. Yet again, he did read my journal, so doesn't that mean that I must ignore him orr... I get up and stare out the window, he isn't there. Good, so my plan is going good so far. Wait what am I talking about I don't really have a plan it is literally just me ignoring him. I walk downstairs. I immediately see the fridge and welcome myself to it. I get a fruit cup and some grape juice to take back to my room. 

     As I am walking back up the stares to my room, I hear my dad. "Alexandria, can we talk?" he says and I look at him dead in the eye. "No.. not right now I have homework." I say and start to go upstairs again. "Who was that boy?" he asks me again and I cringe and stop and look at him again. "My new friend, okay? Now I have to go back to my room" I say and run back to my room, I look down at him once I have reached the top. He is rubbing his temples and walking back to the living room. I walk to my room and take a drink of my juice. Why would he be so stressed, I mean it must be a relief not having to worry about your daughter because she doesn't talk to you and not having a wife cheat on you because she is dead.

     I plop back on my pillows and scroll through tumblr. I get a text. 

'Hey its Ashton, I was just checking up on you, uhh you kind of forgot your earbuds here. they have great sound by the way, sorry they just looked cool so I tried them'

     I put my phone back down and walk over to my closet. Hmm, what to wear what to wear. I decide to grab an over sized t-shirt and leggings. I feel so comfy and warm now. I jump onto my bed and stretch. Something starts hitting my window, it is probably just a bird. The knocking on my window continues and I get up from my comfy spot on my cozy bed to check out what it is. I open my curtains and look down. I sigh, it was Ashton making himself look like a complete fool. He signals me to open the window. I open my window and mouth the word 'what'.

     He laughs and climbs up the side of my house. My eyes widen and I start to panic. No one ever goes in my room, never, it just doesn't happen. He gets to my window and climbs in, I stand there and just look at him. He reaches into his hoodie pocket and pulls out my earbuds. He places them on my desk and stares at me for a second. "Can I tell you something?" he says and he stands there awkwardly. I nod, "Go ahead" I say and he smiles a little. He takes a step closer to me and stops, "Shit I um.. okay just promise not to like hurt me or anything?" He said with a small laugh and I smiled a bit. "I promise." I say and I drop my hands to my sides. He walks closer to me and grabs my face gently and places his lips on mine. It is slow, warm, I feel safe. My eyes are wide at first but then I start to close them and enjoy the moment. He pulls away and we both open our eyes and he is just inches maybe even centimeters away from my face. "I have loved you since the day I saw you." He says and my heart melts. "But why?" I say which I am pretty sure ruined the moment. "Words can't describe this feeling Alex... it just happened. My love for you is here" He says and smiles. I look up into his eyes and kiss him again, I feel his smile against my lips. He pulls my closer to him and we savor the moment. 

     When I pull away, I realize that I failed at ignoring him. I immediately feel disappointed in myself. 

    My dad walks in and Ashton quickly hides. "I thought I heard something, you okay?" my dad says. I nod my head and then my dad walks back out and shuts my door. I turn around and smile at Ashton. "Ash." I say. "Yes, Alexandria?" he says with a smile. "I love you too." I say and his smile grows larger. I hug him and he looks at his phone. "I have to go, I will see you tomorrow" he says and starts to climb out of the window. I meet him when he is just outside of the window. "bye." we both say and he kisses my cheek and leaves. I shut the window and go back to my bed. I think to myself "well this escalated quickly." I laugh to myself and think about how soft his lips were against myn