I was so upset with the way everyone was treating me and even my mother was always telling me that se was so sorry and looked at me like I was broken. I wasn't broken if anything I felt reborn. My life was given a new perspective, a different meaning, my life had a new purpose.
I had asked to see my father that I haven't spoke to for years and Dr. J told me after finding his information that he had been sending me letters and trying to contact me for ages. I glanced at my mother that bit her lip and looked really guilty. I knew it she had been hideing them for awhile now. She just said she was protecting me and really who she must have been protecting me from was the wrong person to protect me from. I was so confused and upset I just started to cry. My mother reached out her nurtureing hand on to my back and I scooted away. I was beyond furios with her.
Dr. J told me in the beginning of the sessions that I could choose to be moved in with a different family if I didn't feel confortable with my mother. I thought she was crazy. I don't feel like that was such a crazy idea now but I didnt want to move in with another family. i told Dr. J that I wanted some time to think about everything and sort things out so I decided that it was time to move in with my real father. I was so upset and just so confused why my mother would want to do such a thing.
My mother cried when I packed my things up tip to move away with my father. I packed up my last box and gave my mother a small hug goodbye. I didn't know how long I would be gone but I knew she was going to be okay. I put the last box on the curb with the rest of the boxes and sat on it and watched the street and waited to see the car that pulled up with my daddy inside to take me home.
