Plane Crash ((formerly Louis, Stop It!)) Louis Tomlinson In The Works

Chapter 14

I wake up to the sun shining through the drapes and no one beside me. I look around the toom, hoping to see him, but he's not there. I sigh, disappointed. I look at my bedside table, to see a note. On it it messy scrawl, it reads, 'Went out with the boys.'

 No 'love you' or 'xoxo'. Just that one sentence. Wow. Well, what was I expecting? After the way he's been acting, is he gonna be all, "Oh honey, I love you so much and I hope you have the most wonderful day ever!"

No. But I keep hoping because somewhere in my stupid mind, a little voice is saying that he can still change. Maybe he's just more broken than me. Maybe he will get better someday. Maybe I'm just kidding myself into thinking that if a man can become a monster, than he can turn back into a man. Louis is on the brink of turning into a monster.

 I walk down the stairs slowly, still tired. I pour some cereal into a bowl and start eating it. I think about Louis the whole time I'm eating, taking a shower, curling my hair... I really need a break. I call Danielle and Perrie wanting to go on a girls day out. I would go and teach Lisa, but Julie called me last week informing me that they are taking a trip to America to visit some family, but they will be home soon.

Perrie and Dani come and pick me up around 12. "Hey babe!" Dani calls. I smile, my mood instantly brightening, and climb into the car. "How are you?" Perrie asks.  

I lie. "Great! How are you guys? I haven't seen you in forever!"

Dani giggles. "Liam and I are great. He took me out last night, and we ate at Olive Garden." 

I think back to the day that Zayn, Perrie, Louis and I went there and the paparazzi were hiding. I smile a little, missing that day. That was fun. 

"Cool!" I exclaim. I look at Perrie, who is pulling out of the driveway. "Zayn and I are good! He got a tattoo again...but what's new?" She jokes. I laugh and roll my window down, letting the cool air flow across my face. I close my eyes and sigh.

"Ivy?" Dani pushes on my shoulder lightly. "What?" I ask, snapping out of my trance. "We're here, love." She says. I look out the window, the mall right there. "Okay, let's go!" I get out of the car and walk with them inside. "Hey," Dani leans into me while walking. "Are you okay? You are really spacy..."

I nod my head. "Yeah, I'm fine." I assure her. She frowns, probably not believing me, but keeps walking.

The next few hours at the mall are a blur. We buy things, clothes, makeup, shoes, anything and everything. They chat, me silent the whole time. It feels almost awkward, but it really shouldn't. It's my fault, because I'm not saying anything! They ate my best friends, I should tell them about Louis and I. But I don't. No one. Needs. To know. At all.

Perrie drops Dani off at her and Liam's flat, and we make our way to my house. She pulls up the drive, and slams on the breaks. She whips around and stares at me. "Ivy, tell me what's bugging you. Right now! I need to know!" She orders. I sink back into my seat. "No, nothing is happening." I mutter. She sighs loudly, getting frustrated. "Ivy, I know when something is up. I haven't been to your house in what seems like a month, we never talk, and you have that look of fear in your eyes whenever we mention Louis."

 I look down, tears coming. Whenever someone tries to come close to me, I always tear up at the thought of spilling my emotions to someone. Which in fact I have done to Perrie a thousand times. But it still happens. "Ivy," She puts her hand on my cheek and pulls my gaze to hers. "Ivy," She says. "You used to tell me everything, now you tell me nothing. Please, please tell me what is going on."

 A tear falls down my cheek. "No," I whisper, my lip quivering. Perrie looks at me, and her eyes become glassy looking. "Don't cry for me, nothings happening." I say quickly. It doesn't do anything though. "Ivy! Please just tell me! I promise I won't tell Louis!" she cries. 

"No!" I shout. "Perrie it's not a big deal!"

 She sobs into her hands. I feel so bad right now, I caused this! 

I hug her, and she wraps her arms around me. "Ivy, I'm sorry!" She sobs. I shake my head, crying too. "Don't, you didn't do anything!"

 After about 20 minutes of this, I end up walking out of her car, not saying a word. I only told her about how I talked to Harry yesterday. That's all. I'm surprised I didn't spill everything to her. I'm proud, yet ashamed. I need to tell someone, and that could have been my chance. Nope, I obviously didn't take it.

I walk into the house, setting all my bags down, Louis' still not home. I decide to go to bed. I don't want to eat, or take another shower, or even get into my pajamas. I'm a sad human being, I know. Can you believe me? No, I bet you can't. I'm the most screwed up, purple headed freak ever. Louis doesn't tell me I'm special anymore. Not that I need that attention all the time, it's just that I was so used to hearing it, it's weird having that gone. I don't know, it was just nice to hear. God, now I sound pitiful.

I fall into a dreamless sleep. Blackness engulfs me, leaving me in a cold bed, with out the man I love.

 I wake up to the sound of the front door slamming, no light shining through my windows anymore. "Baby, I'm HOOOOME!!!"  

Louis yells. Oh no. This is what I've been dreading. He's come home, drunk.

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Hey, sorry if it sucked. I had to write this chapter like 3 times, and I guess I just quit trying. It will be better next chapter. Please please please comment and vote! My goal is to get at least 10 votes per chapter. Is that too much? Oh well. I love you guys anyway. Keep reading and voting and commenting for the next chappie! :D