Broken Beginnings (A Star Wars: Clone Wars fanfic)

Chapter 25: Day Dreams and Nightmares

Rendal POV

I am currently sitting in my room, as I have been for the last half hour trying to calm my heart beat after Alexa told me that she thinks I will be stronger when I go back to training and that I might even rival her skills! When I asked why she replied saying that I would have more strength in my arms, or rather arm, because of how much I use it now.  I was shocked by the compliment to say the least and even now I still feel as if I'm flying!

Speaking of using my arms, though, I am going to get out of my wheelchair and into bed, but just as I was about to do it I heard a knock on the door.  I sensed he presence of my Master and watched as the door slid open.

'Good evening, Master.'  I smiled, somewhat dreamily.

'Greetings my young padawan, I came to ask how your afternoon had been.' He explained coming to sit on the edge of my bed as I turned my chair to face him.

'I see.... It was good....' I replied, my mind wandering back to my time with Alexa.

'I'm glad to hear it.' He nodded. 'What did you get up to? Did you do anymore meditating?' I nodded lazily. 'Good, and did you get to.....'

I zoned out of the conversation as thoughts of a certain padawan danced through my mind.  Seeing her eyes, her smile, watching the way her cloak billows behind her when she walks or runs anywhere and then my memories of seeing her face without her hood.... I don't think I will ever forget that....

'Rendal?'  Obi Wan's voice shook me from my day dream.

'S-Sorry Master.'  I shook my head to clear it.

'That's alright, but tell me what did you do this afternoon?'

'Well....' I trailed off as once again images of my afternoon with Alexa flashed through my head and I still got a warm tingly feeling when I saw her cute smile in my mind.

However I knew that I had to try and push such thoughts away, if Obi Wan sensed that he was thinking about her he might say something.... Though what is there to say? We're friends, but I can't help thinking that their might be something more between us in the future....

'I sense that your mind is else where tonight, my young apprentice.' Obi Wan regained my attention.

'I'm just a little tired.' I sighed, half lying.

'I understand.... But it does make me curious as to why you are keeping your thoughts so closely guarded.' He raised a brow.

'I.... Uh.... I didn't realise I was.'

I winced internally at how bad my response was, as if he wasn't already suspicious enough!

'You know, Rendal, if there's something on your mind don't be afraid to tell me.'

'Thank you and I know, but there's nothing bothering me.'

'Very well, I will leave you to sleep.... But first, would you like a hand into bed?' He offered kindly.

'Thank you, but no thank you, Master.  I am trying to build up strength in the two limbs that I can still use.'

'Alright, goodnight my apprentice.' He said getting up and opening the door.

'Goodnight, Master.' I nodded watching him go out.

This is going to make things difficult, how am I supposed to keep focused when all that's ever on my mind is Alexa and why am I almost constantly thinking about her?!

Alexa POV

I decided to do a little meditation to calm my mind before going to bed tonight....