Loneliness

I'm alone.

I want a friend...

No one... no one's there.... like I give a damn anyway.

Please.... bear with me. I'm tired of being alone!!

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As I walk amongst the flock of people on my way to school, I suddenly get the urge to look up to the sky. It was grey... the clouds were gathering up too.

"Ah, it looks like it's going to rain..."

On my way to my class, I see people gather amongst themselves. Everyone's got there own clique... everyone except me though.

Damn it all... I hate all of you cock-sucking humans. I wish you'd all disappear.

I don't want to be by myself anymore... please! I want to be accepted...

I didn't mind them and just went on my way I guess... nothing better to do so I'll just go to class. I know had to attend this one class. Truth is I haven't been attending class religiously. I can still pass the tests too, so I pretty much just come once a week.

School doesn't give a fuck.

Parents are long dead.

No one has the right to get angry at me for skipping school.

There would be times when people would go to me and talk to me and other shit like that, but I just brush 'em off like I usually do. I don't want to talk to anyone. What's the point anyway?

The ones who keep bugging the hell out of me is the student representatives. It's their "duty" to annoy the flying fuck out of me. Katsu Miyashi, Fuji Kiseki and Chiaki Yuzuki.

"Hey, Shizuka-chan... you haven't been in school for a long while? Are you okay..?" Chiaki said, smiling that sweet fake smile.

Like you would care...

"We were worried about you..." Katsu smiled at me too, exactly like Chiaki's.

Lies.

"Yeah Shizu-chan! We thought something bad happened to you! We were scared for you!" Fuji was just like the other two.

Lies.

"You're our friend after all Shizuka-chan..."

ALL OF YOU ARE FUCKING LIARS!! STAY AWAY FROM ME!

"Shizuka-chan..?"

One of them gave me that look... that look I hate the most. She was pitying me. Stop looking at me like that..... stop it.... I don't need anything from you....

Thank you for caring about me...

"I'm sorry Chiaki-san, Fuji-san, Katsu-san... I didn't mean to worry you guys over me." I muttered, trying so hard to not say what was playing on my head.

"Well if you need anything, come talk to us 'kay?"

Finally the bastards left.

Please don't go... not yet...

I hate all of you

Please.... Please stay awhile longer... I hate being alone.

Everyone should just choke on their lies and die!

I.... I don't want to be alone anymore... save me!

I hate all of you... I'll never stoop so low as to even try and talk to shits like you.

Please... I want to be happy......

Just once....