People change~Harry Styles & Zayn Malik

Chapter 23

Who said love doesn't hurt? It hurts too much when you know that you can't be with the person you love. The only person who make you feel alive, free and yourself.

School is over and I am walking to go back home. I needed to be by myself for a while. I had my earphones on and I listen random songs which they are playing on my phone. I was thinking. What will I say to Zayn? Do I have to leave the house? Or should I make him leave? Or should I just accept it? And with Harry? What will I do without him? He is everything to me. I love him more that I could ever imagine.

With those thoughts finally I arrived home. I opened the door and when I got in, I saw Zayn sitting on the sofa doing nothing. When he saw me he took a deep breath. I let my bag on a chair and I went to sit opposite of him.

"How did you find out?" It was the first thing he asked me. I close my eyes and start to think what should I say next.

"I...Someone told me. About both of you and Harry."

"Lottie told ya?" He said angrily.

"What? No. No. Why Lottie anyways?" I tried to lie but I didn't succeed.

"Lottie dates me Madi. And she is the only person who knows. So please cut the crap and say it."

Zayn scares me a lot now. I had never see him like that.

"No. She didn't."

"I don't buy it sis."

"This is not what I wanted to say anyway Zayn. The thing is that if you are going to keep taking drugs, I can't live with you in the same house. Which means one of us has to move."

"You'are kiddin' "

"No. Not at all."

"I am not leaving."

"Okey. I will."

"Fuck. No! Nobody is leaving that house."

"I can't live with someone who takes drugs even this is my brother. I broke up with Harry too. If you don't want to stop doing it, then this is your desicion. But when you take something you lose something else too. You can't have anything. " I stood up.

"I am leaving tonight. " I say and I walk away.

I got in my bedroom and when I close the door tears start to fall from my eyes. Oh gosh. What a nightmare am I living? Zayn is my brother. He is the only family I have. I can't live somewhere alone. What will I do? What will he do? He only has me. And I am sure that from now he will start to hate me because I am dumping him like mum and dad did. This is not what I wanted in my life.

I sniff and started to make my bag and clothes. I have no idea where I will go. Maybe I will ask Tami if I can stay with her for a while until I will find a house to live. One moment my phone rang and it was Lottie.

"Hello?" I sniff.

"Hey girl"

"Hey. Sorry. I am not in mood."

"I can hear that. What happened?"

"I am leaving my house."

"What? Why?"

"I can't live with Zayn anymore. One of us had to leave the house and Zayn didn't want to leave so I will. I broke up with Harry, I am leaving Zayn, I am done with all of them. But this..." And then I start to cry.

"Hey. You don't have to leave the house. Zayn won't do anything to you."

"I know Lottie. But I can't see him like this anymore. I can't see neither Harry destroying himself. This is all a nightmare. And I really wish to wake up.".

"I think that you overdo it. I believe that you have to stay home. Zayn needs you. You are the only family he has. Don't do this to him. This will make it much worst." Lottie has right. Leaving Zayn alone is like what mum and dad did and it will not make it better. He would do worse than take drugs. No. I am not leaving the house but I need to do something cause I can't see him be like this. Neither Harry.

"Okey. I will hang up so I can talk to him."

"Relax. Everything will be fine."

"Bye Lotts".

When I hung up I sat on my bed. I was looking the door and I was trying to deside. Probably Zayn will think that I am insane and I don't know what I want. But I don't care. What was I thinking? Leaving Zayn would be the biggest mistake I would have ever make. So I just stood up, I open the door and I went downstairs to find the only person that I could call family.

"Zayn?" I shout. I found my big brother sitting on his sofa watching Tv. But he wasn't actually watching the show. He was thoughtful.

"Hey." I say again so I can disturb him from whatever he was thinking.

"What?" He snapped. I was sure he will be like this now.

"Look. I am sorry for what did I say 10 minutes ago. But I mean it for what I said about drugs. I want you to stop them."

"And who are you? My mum? No. So fuck off. Actually I liked that idea. Leaving me alone in this house. Please do it. You will make me happy." He ironically said.

"Zayn? Stop it. It just hurts me to see you like this. And I am sad."

"You know Madi. You try to act like you care about me when you never gave a damn about me. You never did. What happened now? You feel sorry for me? Thanks but I don't need you pity."

"Why are you like this?"

"You are asking? You dare to ask me something like that? You we're about to dump me! Even if you changed your mind I will never forget it cause you just thought about it. You wanted to dump me!"

"Zayn-"

"FUCK OFF!" He shouted. Everyone could here him. Neighbors. He wasn't like this before drugs. But it's my fault too.

"You know what? You don't want to leave? Then don't. We can share this house but act like I don't excist. I don't want to speak to you again. I don't want you to talk to me again. You have died for me Madison. I don't have a family anymore!" He said and with that he closed loudly the door behind him and left me here alone. This is all my fault. Zayn hates me and he is going to hate me forever...