Random stuff I post

Known and Unknown

I smiled to the end

That's how you remember me, right?

Good! I want to be remember as that happy, innocent child.

Who had been able to not care for those hurtful words you said.

Or the ugly truth that I was a mistake.

Or the judgmental looks I received, no matter what I do...

Anyways, It's great you see me as that type of person.

Who'll give my all to keep peace, make sure everyone is happy...

Which I got to admit, is ironic since I can't be happy myself- but that's okay!

Because, as long as you're
happy....

Funny how I can't honestly say I'm happy, right?

But if you wish

I shall fake a smile

A laugh

Happiness

Joy

And innocent

Cause, I'm suppose to play as a child

A child with no knowledge of how cruel the world is

And how humans hurt one another

You tell me close my eyes

Yet you forgot to tell to not listen

So the words never went unheard

Those filth of the words has been heard

Yet I laugh a bitter laugh

At how cruel the world is

And how cruel you are

To force me to take part of this never ending

Game of pretending

You say I have no lying skills

Or I ain't cut out of an actress

Which is funny

How easily I can play as a child

How I can make people believe me

How I can easily say I'm 'fine'

Because I made a promise

A promise which I will keep

A promise to God and those around me

That if I make sure the ones around me are happy

Then I'll give up my happiness in returns

I'll fake it so no one will try to change this fact

But even though I fake my happiness

And say I'm fine

I will never say I'm happy

Cause an innocent child tells the part truth

Not a full on lie right away

I'm breathing and still don't count as broken

So I'm label as 'fine'

But I will never be happy

And happiness is not within my grasp

And will say I have it when I dont.

So this is my story

Of pretending this endless game

Where I'm the child with no experiences of cruelty

And fakes everything but nothing

Who's pure yet not

Who lies yet not

Who's a child yet an adult

Weak yet strong

Immature but mature

I'm known yet not

Known and unknown

Yes, that's what I am

Known and Unknown

Not two-face

Cause I dont show the second part of me to anyone

Cause the second face is deep inside

Lock within with no key

So its unknown

While the first is known to everyone else

That's why its best to be called

Known and unknown