I lay here ... Waiting for something, ¿what? I don't know exactly. All I know is that no matter how hard I try to get up and move on. This constant wave crashes over me over and over again.
I lay here waiting for a glimpse of hope, anything to help me get through this dark void consuming me.
Hope seems like something I will never get. I feel like I deserve this pain, this emptiness. I feel hollow on the inside. My tears feel like fire burning their way down my cold pale face.
This pain is too much, my walls are painted crimson red. What a beautiful distraction from my black and white world. I can feel my breathing slow down, my heart already giving up on me.
I'm ready to let go there's no point anymore in trying. I'm tired... So so tired. Death sounds calming, beautiful almost. No pain, no noise I can finally get away... Forever.
