Sarah's Rants and Opinions

hi

Hi. So. I'm back with more of me being sad.

I've been okay for the past couple of weeks, I've found that I can draw quite well and also I've been watching connor and troye and tyler a lot lately and they make me really happy and troyes music does also and I REALLY LOVE TREVOR MORAN but ok so I brought up my anxiety at the dinner table a couple nights ago and how I want to see a doctor and my parents are just saying how they think it'll pass and I'm like this has been going on for more than a year I do not think this will pass. And tonight I just got so sad. There's just this feeling in my chest and I just want to cry and scream and I just want to be happy and okay and care free but I can't be because I always act like I LIVE myself but in reality I'm so insecure and also I just want to come out!! I see all these people on the internet coming out and their parents are so accepting and I just wish my parents could accept me but they won't and it just makes me so sad to think about the fact that my own parents (if I did come out to them) wouldn't accept who I am. And it's just so sad to think about and now I'm crying oh god

anyways I just hate the fact that they wouldn't accept me I just want to fuckibg be myself but I can't and I hate it I really, really hate it and I'd like to talk to someone about it but I can't help but feel like no one will actually listen or care or I'd just be a burden to them oh my god

I hate this I hate this feeling that I won't be accepted for who I am and that I can't be accepted no matter what I do and sometimes I just wish I could change

Whatever, until next time on sarah is an insecure piece of crap, goodbye