pointless prose

grotesque

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-blood runs thin when you water it down
-it's inevitable really but you keep trying
-there's mud under your nails and i saw you picking the gravel out of your knee
-you must think i'm stupid to never mention it
-but i'm still tongue tied over you

-blood can look prettier than lipstick and it seems fitting that your insides are spilling despite your best efforts
-you must know by now that as far as extraction techniques go your own self loathing works better than any guilt i could ever make you feel
-i wish you could still convince me

-because i thought it was cool that you -didn't care and somehow unfeeling looked good on you
-it was cool when you smoked until your fingers got burned
-and it was cool when you kissed me but ice can scorch too

-teeth chip on pavement
-and ribs crack when you hit the floor
-grotesque always seemed too pretty a word to mean what it does but maybe they were thinking of you when they spoke it that first time
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