I like to tease for fun- Nash grier

Chapter 4

Next day
Sunday

I felt really bad about what I did
I actually understood how he felt an it was awful really I honestly couldn't stop thinking about it

I wanted to say sorry but I knew he wouldn't listen, I thought maybe if I just talked to him properly about everything that I did and make him feel better some way it would be better.

I messaged him at like 11:30am

To Nash
Hey, you probably don't want me to call you baby right now but I'm gonna anyway baby, I need to talk to you

From Nash
What about, we talked and you said you said and I said what we needed to say and that's it there's no need to talk about it anymore

To Nash
Did it upset you baby?

From Nash
Don't call me baby and I honestly feel like I've been cheated on by someone I really love it's horrible

To Nash
I bet that girl that you cheated on felt how your feeling now though eh?

From Nash
Stop just stop, you've really hurt me

To Nash
Come round?

From Nash
Meet me

To Nash
Okay what outside your door 😂 we live like opposite to each other

From Nash
Yeah umm just meet me outside then and we can walk.

To Nash
Okay :)

From Nash
:/ In a bit

I told my mom I was going out then I went and we started to walk

"So do you wanna explain yourself anymore then?" He asked

"Yeah, I'm really sorry, I really don't know why I did it, I understand how you feel and I feel awful for what I did and there's nothing else I can say." I told him

"I'm just left hurt and all you can say is that?" He asked

"Yes because that's all there is to say, he asked if he could kiss me and I said yes it was a thing and I dunno why I did it maybe cuz he was hot or something I have no clue I'm sorry." I explained

"And have you thought about it?" He asked

"I can't stop thinking about it." I told him

"So you liked it and you don't care that I was there okay I'm done I dont wanna know anymore." He told me

"No I didn't mean like that, I can't stop thinking about it because then I think of you and the look in your eyes it was painful and I feel awful but obviously I can't reverse what I did and I can't give an answer for why I did it." I explained again

"I don't want you too feel sorry for me or feel bad, you wanted it else you wouldn't of done it its fine I just dunno what to do now you've known me years, you've known him 5 minutes that was literally all it was, and what did you do when I went go and sleep with him because of you did then good for you." He told me and he started to get some kind of anger but he was sad it was like he was taking it out on hisself

We stopped and he like stood against the wall and he looked down.

"No I didn't sleep with him I just stayed by myself because I felt bad that you went, I need you to believe me Nash." I told him

"How am I supposed to do that, I can't do that I weren't there." He said

"Please I just need to get across my side of the story but I'm getting angry because I can't explain why." I told him

"Don't beg me, it's not my problem your getting angry need to get your story straight then don't you." He told me

"I just need you to forgive me baby." I said and he looked at me.

"I said don't call me baby." He said

"Tough because I am." I told him

"It's not right." He said

I stood in front of him and he looked at me.

"No it's not right and because of me none of this or me or you is right but this, this is and it's what you want." I said

"What is?" He asked

"Don't talk now." I told him

I leaned towards him and I kissed him softly, he kissed bad and I felt his heart began to race because I was so close to him, he deepened it and he linked his hands with mine, it was honestly one of the best feelings, I pulled away slightly and he looked at me.

"Don't pull away." He said and he kissed me again, I kissed back and  I thought about everything and once again I started to fall for him, I tried to ignore it but it kept telling me that those feelings weren't gonna go, he tugged at my bottom lip and I swear I was gonna say I loved him so I pulled away and he looked at me again, he kinda looked confused.

"I don't know what to say now." I said and he smiled

"It's okay I don't expect you to say you love me." He said

"No ha." I laughed

He kissed my cheek and he hugged me.

"I forgive you by the way." He said

"I thought you might." I answered.

We walked back and in my head I told myself that I didn't fall for him but the feeling didn't seem to go this time, I had took it too far and it could NEVER happen again.

We were like best friends again and he came round my house for a bit then His mom called him home for his dinner but he had to go

"I'll see you tomorrow then." He said

"Aren't you at sxhool?" I asked and he laughed

"Kicked out for a bit aren't I." He laughed

"Bad boy." I said

"Only for you." He answered and I smiled

"See you tomorrow then." I smiled

He kissed my cheek and I hugged him

He said bye to my mom then he left
There was no one I could talk to my feelings about round here but I couldn't get rid of them so I got a diary and I ripped out the old things I had wrote before and I began to write about my feelings

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I don't know how to explain it I kissed him to make things better between us. And it did I didn't mean anything by it but I got caught up and I'm starting to fall for him this is why I haven't kissed him after what happened last time but this time it's gone to far I don't wanna say I love him but the feelings won't go, I need to get out of it somehow, and I think I know what I'm gonna do.

a/N WHAT WILL SHE DO?
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