So, to start off, I suppose I should start with how I discovered Paramore.
It was just one of the bands that occasionally played around the house while I was growing up, I listened from time to time but never really had much interest. In the last year or two, my best friend has gotten me into the band and they've become a big part of my life. Especially Hayley, she's such an inspiring person to me and a strong female role model that I can look up to. She's been through so much and shes still here and so happy. I had planned for at least three years that my first tattoo would be My Chemical Romance, well that changed. (I'll get one eventually though!)
But Paramore brought out something in me, I always thought being happy was something only achieved when you're grown up and on your own. I thought to be happy you first had to find something to be angry about and rebel against it (and trust me, I do that a lot). Paramore brought the happy person out of me, along side my best friend. I've even had teachers tell me I seem like a much more positive person. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm still struggling with depression and anxiety, but its gotten a little better. And the best part? I'm not afraid to be happy anymore. At one point in my life, I was fucking terrified of the idea of happiness because sadness was almost all I knew, it became a home to me. I was clean from selfharm for nearly two years before relapsing on June 17th of 2014. I haven't cut or had the urge to since then.
Now, back to the tattoo.
I may have been a little impulsive. But I wanted it for over a year (probably thanks to Meg).
Now, I'm sure, like many others...you're ready to tell me how much I'll regret this in ten..twenty years.
But the thing is, even if I do regret it, I'll be able to look back to this point in my life and know how much the band and its members meant to me.
Unlike my friend, I can't relay every aspect of their lives or even tell you (for the most part, I can tell you a few) which songs go to which album. I can't do that for any band, not even MCR which I was obsessed with for years. I can't list all the albums either.
I'm just not good with that sort of thing, and I can't relay lyrics that well. But that doesn't mean this band means any less to me, I love the band and everything they stand for. I love their style and passion. I got the tattoo on 9/25/15, just a 3 days after my 18th birthday and I'm so so so happy to have it.
