Don't wait (janiel fanfiction)

Chapter 14: Tears

WARNING: GRAPHIC CONTENT. Involves self-harm. Viewer's discretion! Credits to justine: @twilightjoey she writes amazingly.

Joey's p.o.v.

I locked myself in the bathroom and changed the blades for the razor. I re-thought about everything before attempting to damage myself more than I already am.

I stared at the razor and all kinds of feelings and emotions were happening at the same time. But then again:

FAGGOT! YOU SHOULD DIE!

UGLY! WHY DO YOU EXIST!

CUNT! BURN YOURSELF!

They win...I am every word they describe. I am truly disgusting. I thought I was stronger and could stand up for myself but, I guess I was wrong. The last thing I heard while stepping out the bus was," Slit your wrists till' you bleed to death".

...so I will.

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Daniel's p.o.v

I can't stand this anymore! It's been years since I've spoken to Joey. I know we aren't the same as we were when we met. It's funny how such small things can change alot. That simple argument between us in middle school was pretty pathetic now that I think of it. I mean we were and still are immature ,but I found it unnecessary to ignore each other.

Going to school hasn't been the same throughout the years. I know it hasn't been too long ago ,but it feels like eons. I really do miss arriving to school in the morning and being greeted my a great smile. I have came to the final conclusion of my sexuality. I am comfortable and proud to say I am Gay.

There has always been something about Joey. I don't know what... His eyes? His perfect messy quiff? His pearly whites and heart warming smile? Maybe it's just him. He is such a lovely, innocent,and nice person. I can't imagine anything horrible happen to such a big hearted and beautiful person.

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Joey's p.o.v

...so I will

I stared at the razor for a few second , and before I knew I was counting every fresh cut on my left wrist. I did the same with my right wrist.

I gripped the razor strongly before starting. I slid the razor smoothly over my soft skin, feeling a sharp pain that numbed the pain of my heart. Before I knew it, my arm was peppered with drops of blood that slid delicately into the sink underneath my arm, watching the creamy white turn dark red. I winced as I brought my arm over the tap, turning it on so the blood mixed with the water, slipping down the drain. The physical pain of the cuts somehow made my heart feel stronger, almost not as broken. It was easier to forget the troubles of my life when I was tending to the wounds on my arm I had inflicted on myself. It was strange saying it, but true. I had self harmed. Should I be disappointed in myself? It wasn't the brave thing to do, but it really helped...

As my last cut on my arm I gripped it tighter and roughly slid it across my sensitive skin. This one was a big wound, a deeper one. Blood ran down my arm and dropped down to the floor forming a dark red puddle of blood. I felts tears fall gently on my cheek and slowly roll down. Teardrop landed perfectly on each cut. I started to realize everything around me appeared blurry now. I tried getting up ,but my my blood was rushing to fast so I held onto the sink and placed an arm on the wall to push myself up. I was too week and it was too late. I fell back and my head hit the floor. I felt like my soul was slipping away from my lifeless body. Everything was pitch black now.
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Daniel's p.o.v.

You know what, I'm going to see him and try talking to him. Maybe we can work it out and be Best friends again. Start all over again. All I want is to see him smile in front of me once more.

A/N: I know I said I would update Friday ,but I guess today is good too! I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Watch out for Chapter 15 in a few days. Let's get @twilightjoey and my last chapter too 15+ votes