Baby i love you

Chapter 1: Delirious pov

i signed into my Xbox acount and saw, wildcat,lui,nogla,mini ladd and vanoss were on. vanoss.. i loved him. he was cute and dorky. and his laugh! dont even get me started on that one. but me...im just an ugly boy with brown hair and mixed color eyes. i had scars on my wrist (some old some new). i sighed and looked up at my screen.

"vanossgaming invited you to a xbox live party."

i press accept and jumped right in hiding my deep depression i had inside...
"Hey f**kers!" i say laughing my crazy wierd laugh with strands of my brown hair fall onto my face. "hey john-o." said wildcat teasing me. "shut up piggy." said miniladd blowing up wildcat in his car in gta5. wildcat screamed angrly at miniladd. "F**K YOU!!" He said trying not to laugh at mini who got ran over by a car hilariously. "get rekt mini!" laughed vanoss. i smiled to myself at his laugh. "so godamn perfect..." i thought blushing. "earth to delirious, you there still?" said lui in his squeaker voice. "h-huh? yeah i am." i said shaking my thoughts away. "evan said we are coming to his place for the weekend, you in?" asked nogla with excitement in his voice. i knew they all want to see my face, but why? im ugly. "yeah..." i said. i could hear them screaming happily and chanting "johnathan" over and over. i laughed and shook my head. "you guys are wierd." i said. "yes we are." said miniladd.

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some hours later i finally finished playing with my friends and went to go eat dinner. i could hear my phone go off.

"ew. you're so ugly, delirious. quit youtube."

"vanoss is way prettier than u."

"go die in a hole gay boy!"

i read them all and cried hard. "what did i do to deserve all this hate?" then, i got one which hurt the most..

"go cut yourself and die johnathan."

i ran upstairs and locked myself in my bathroom to cry. i looked for my blades that i left in my medicene cabnet and i got them and started to cut. blood splattered onto the ground abd tears too, i cleaned the floor and my wrists and went downstairs back to my phone to texts from vanoss.

V: hey man you there?

V: johnathan?

V: u dead?

D: no. lol what up?

V: are u ok today? you werent quite talkitive like you normaly are man....

D: im fine. honest....

V: dude, tell me the truth.

V: delirious?

V: johnathan. please answer, you're worrying me.

i turned my phone off and cried in bed in a curled ball. "im not ok..." i whispered to myself and trembled in my sleep.

i woke up early and got my stuff packed to go see evan in canada. i brought two blades in case i . . . .well nevermind, i went to go eat breakfeast and get dressed. i wore a blue t-shirt and black hoodie and green sneakers and left to go to the airport.

to go see evan....