I sat here on my bed today. Usually I listen to music, blast them from the speakers to silence my thoughts. But not this time.
I just sat here and wondered. Could things have worked out differently? And then my mind wandered to the place I didn't want it to. Now, since I'm forced to relive my mistakes and could've beens, here is the could've been I would always regret.
It was early April and I was out of town. I had gone with my mom on a business trip and was gone for 5 days. Halfway through the trip you texted me, asked me when I was coming back. Jokingly I had asked if you missed me. And you replied with the truth.
Yes.
I would've never thought you had missed me of all people. The one person you always argued with and picked fights with since you needed someone to argue with.
Now its months later. I couldn't being muself to reply that I missed you, since I didn't think I could miss anyone. But now. Now that you aren't mine, I want to say I miss you. So much, but it doesn't matter.
She's in your arms and the one person I want to talk about that with.
Is you.
