Feu de La foudre (IN WATTY AWARDS 2013!)

A visit from the Night Mare

KJD

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I turn around and look at Luke..

I whisper/yell

"No way in HELL I'll bring that Man whore INSIDE our House!!"

Luke sighed and said

"Alex, You have t-"

I whisper

"No I don't.."

The pain in my chest was being replaced by anger..

I shouted

"NO I DON'T!!"

He sighed and was about to say something but I cut him off..

Looks like I have to tell him..

"Is that Man whore of a Alpha is at your Table right now??!!"

He sighed and said

"No-"

"NO buts Luke!! He's doing IT with another woman right now!! Wait, scratch that, He's doing IT with another WOMEN right now.. Somewhere in this freaking school!!"

I pause when I notice I have tears in my eyes..

But I'm to angry to care..

"Do you know why I know it?? Coz I can freaking FEEL it!!! The pain!! I can freaking feel it!! It felt like being stab in my stomach, Chest and my lungs by a bloody dagger!!"

He look at me with a curious look..

I sighed and said

"When I'm im London, I knew he Marked Grace.. Coz,"

I sniff and said

"That time.. My lungs is squeezing!! It's like being stab by a SILVER dagger ten times!!! It hurt like Bitch in Hell!!!"

I sniff and said

"It's because of this Bloody Mate bond.. Even if he rejected me.. It doesn't mean it's Freaking broken!! It doesn't mean I can't feel it!! It hurt like I'm dying BUT I'm still alive.. Every single details that I thought I will finally die.. But I can't Die!!! I can't just bloody DIE!! I can't escape the pain.. I can't escape the PAIN..."

I pause and said

"Another reason Max wants me to join them, was because of my slightest piece of freedom, and it's another option than being Dead..

Ones I'm a Vampire, The pain is still there but it doesn't hurt that bloody much!!"

I look down and back at he's eyes..

"But I can't accept it.. Even if I will be the most powerful Vampire here in Earth, Even if I can have my Powers forever.. Even if the pain was lessen... I can't...

Coz it means being against MY family, Against my Pack, Against my Friends, Against YOU... Even if I hate Dark Shadows Pack, Even if I HATE Damien... I can't, Coz I'm not selfish.. I care about you guys.. I care about my pack, my friends, I care about my Family.. Even if I suffer.."

I pause and said

"But it doesn't mean I will NOT stay away from the bastard..

Damien's mate, DIED a year ago, Damien's mate DIED from the time He rejected Lexi.."

I pause and said

"I Alexandra Rafael, Red Were, Pack Warior of Feu de La foudre Pack, Have NO mate.. Non, Zilch, Zip-o.. None.. I'm mateless and I'm proud of it.."