Please Don't Give Up On Me

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June 25, 2014

My name is Sarah Warner. I just decided it would be a good idea to start keeping a journal or a "diary" of sorts. I went out and got this nice notebook for it. It's a black, leather-bound journal. I'm not really good at writing down my thoughts or my feelings, but I'm going to try anyways. I thought it might be good for me. I don't really ever talk about my feelings or anything like that. I don't really have many friends, so I pretty much have no one I can talk to. Not like I would, if I had any.

Anyways, I guess I should write down a little bit about myself so I can look back at who I was later in life; or whatever I plan to do with this. I'm sixteen. I'm going to be a junior when school starts up again. I had two best friends, Lilly and Sam. Sam died in a car wreck in eighth grade. Lilly stopped talking to me soon after. Sam had been the glue that held us all together. After them, I haven't had friends again. I have many acquaintances, but no one stays around long enough or cares enough for me to consider them a friend. I don't necessarily care too much about that, though. I don't like people much.

I'm not happy. I haven't been for a while. I can't really remember the last time I had a really happy day. I'm not sad either, though. I'm just kind of neutral, emotionless. It doesn't matter. My future might end up better than my present. Maybe. I don't know yet what I want to do with my life. I guess I have enough time to figure it all out.

I like autumn. I love the changing colors of the leaves and the cool, crisp air. I like gray, stormy skies and taking long walks in the woods. I like sitting under trees and losing myself in a good book. I like hoodies that are warm and way too big on me. I like taking pictures, lots and lots of pictures. I want to remember the little things; the things that make me smile in the moment. I want to look back at how the trees contrast against the sky on a particular day, or how clear the water looks in the stream behind my house. The little things are the things worth remembering.

I like music. I love Ed Sheeran, The Spill Canvas, SayWeCanFly, and other bands and artists similar to them. I play guitar and sing a little. I write. I write as much as I can: lyrics, poems, stories, and now this journal. I write down everything I want to remember.

I guess that's about all for now. I'll write again soon.

Bye,

-Sarah