Shattered

Death

My heart sinks as you walk through the doors,

I despise myself for this feeling in my chest.

Why does life have to be so unfair?

Why do some always have the best?

I know I'm not pretty,

Or special at all.

But sometimes I wish,

That I wasn't so small.

I'm not fishing for compliments,

When I say I'm worthless.

Sometimes you have to face facts,

I'm a big, fat mess.

When I look in the mirror,

I see a talentless girl with nothing to show.

Why can't I be like them?

Why is it that you always glow?

I'm just another prop in someone's perfect life.

Tears threaten to fall as I stand here in the rain.

Why is it that some are destined for greatness,

While others to a life of pain.

Sometimes I feel like breaking down.

Like screaming at the top of my lungs,

Sometimes I feel like giving in to these demons.

Perhaps I'll be left in peace for once.

But deep down I know the truth,

I will never be in peace.

Not in this life at least.

So maybe I'll leave.

All it takes is a cut,

Or a rope and a chair.

Soon I'll be gone.

Will anyone care?

Perhaps it would be better if I just left.

But what hurts the most is not that I'll leave,

But that no one will mourn,

No one will grieve.

I have given up on trying,

It's too much to bear.

I tried to be strong,

But I belong elsewhere.

My time has come,

To finally leave.

I know I'll be happy.

But no one will grieve.

- I really hope you loved this!! I know it's short but in my defence, I was half asleep when I wrote this!!