Randomness part two!

People left xD

I love how I have posted so little recently that I dint really have any people left properly...only bamboo16 and kkatlov doowrite XD
I've just had so much going on recently, my sister is in a wheelchair possibly for forever, appointments gave been manic, I relapsed in self harm, I'll be going back to school (a special needs school tho) in a few weeks, after a year out, my sister had another scary hospital visit (partly because it looked literally like she was dieing when she went into the ambulance) and also another Thursday night, but she's ok now. I've almost tried to kill myself 3 times now, and almost cut too deep over my wrist.
But I'm ok.
I think.
I've also been having gender identity problems recently. I think I'm either gender fluid, (what it sounds like) or Agender, (you don't go by male or female, using they/them/their pronouns) and I think I'm demiromantic as well as being polysexual.
So yeah.
Also, I really wish my name was Sîan (said sharn).
And I'm learning sign language.
And I look after a 17 yr old Down syndrome boy at my special needs youth group who loves me and calls me meme/mimi...
So yeah.
And I'm constantly feeling numb at the moment.