Sidetracking Through Our Lives

Late Night Thoughts

Whenever I stay up past 11 I will come up with some really dumb idea. Whether it be a song, a drawing, or even just the little kid questions everyone still asks themselves, "Why is the sky blue?", "Why is grass green?", "How did Earth get here?", etc.
Yes, there are answers to these questions, but not particularly the ones everyone chooses to put faith in.
I especially get hypocritical/curious when I finish reading a book I thought was amazing. Like, Looking For Alaska. Wonderous, just captivating. Books really get me thinking. And when I think, I can get into deep thought for weeks, but no one would know it honestly, I don't particularly like showing my 'dorky' side to people. It's annoying how people think I'm smarter than them, when really I am so stressed I study more than I should. I get really interested in mostly everything we do at school.
I also have the tendency to put myself down more, it's kind of funny. I just think trying to accept myself would be a waste of my time. I'll try and figure out everything later, I'm not that important anyways.