Sidetracking Through Our Lives

the knowledge gained from a bitch

the silent cries i know you go through at night
a touch could shatter against your porcelain skin
i really wish i knew you, but it's not my choice
i could reach out and shatter my whole existence in attempt to hug your hunched figure
a muffled apology is what gets you to turn
then its too late, i'm beginning to burn
i'm beginning to fade and it's painful
looking at you though it's worth it
"smile" i say
and you do, even as my body fazes and i sob
you wanted this
you desired my end
you waited until i had pity to lend
"fuck you" i gasp
it's done and i am gone
now stands a different person
a wiser and adventurous human being ready for action
now you shake and stutter as your bones gain traction
"excuse me", i say as i straighten my posture
you move and you've lost your words
i am walking into the moonlit streets with the experience that has changed my life