Fallout Scarab Beetle fanfic

Head over Ass

*Kayli*

I walked in to the hall as Corey was about to go in to his own apartment "hey Corey let's get out of here, if we stay it wont take long before we have one if not all of them trying to talk" I lifted my hand and shook what I had it at him "you drive, I'll give directions!" Corey looked at the keys in my hand "are those..." "yep, I snagged them off the table beside the door on my way out, I'm sure he won't mind and if he does oh well, now let's go before they come looking for us" as we walked to the lift we heard the voices in the apartment pick up but neither of us really wanted to hear it. Once inside the lift I wrapped my arms around Corey just to hold him he looked so broken, so lost and my rage from earlier came back tenfold I wasn't even sure who at; Mindy for starting this mess, Raven for his head up his attitude or myself because I know all this started when I got involved with them.

When the lift reached the floor I untangled myself from Corey and walked in silence to the car. The trip was silent except for me telling Corey where to turn. When I told him to park he looked around in confusion "we gotta walk from here it will take a minute" still Corey said nothing merely nodding at me, as he got out. I met him at the front of the car and grabbed his hand saying nothing I walked him through the kids park and on to the benches at the top of the public area. Once I pulled him to stop and sat he finally broke his silence "it's beautiful here Kayl's how did you find this place?" I looked back behind us "you see those house down there, the ones at the very back, that's where our house was before my mom died, when she got sick and things got bad I came up here for the quiet, sometimes I'd bring Wil and tell him it was the whole world he could see and that it wasn't so bad cause one day we'd be out there and none of it would hurt anymore."

I sat back to look at the lights of Charleston, and the stars beyond, this place always brought me peace gave me space to breathe when things got to be much. I hadn't been here in years but it was the first place I thought of when I was trying to decide where to bring Corey. We sat there leaning against each other lost in thought for a while before Corey spoke again "Why did he do it, why did he make me think he wanted me as much as I wanted him? He said I was his, he's the one that wanted everyone to know, he's been the one making sure we spend most nights together, why did he let me believe he felt the same, why did I believe he was starting to love me too. God damn it why do I have to be in love with him?" he broke right in front of my eyes, he just broke, the tears streaming down his face and the heart wrenching sobs coming from his chest cause my heart to physically ache for him.

I held him tight to me, letting him get it out for a couple of minutes while I tried to get my thoughts together. "he does love you Cor, he really does you know Raven have known him for years, have you ever seen him with anyone the way he is with you, he claimed you as his because he didn't want to let you go, even in the short amount of time I've known him I can see the difference in him and that's because of you. Cor he is in love with you I just don't think he knows it yet either that or he hasn't accepted it yet. I don't know what the hell was going through his head earlier but I know that's how he feels about you I saw how hurt he was when you didn't go to him at the movie theatre. He hides it well Cor I'm guessing that has something to do with his past but if you really do love him you need to talk to him, maybe smack him round his stupid Russian head a few times too while you're at it" my last statement got a small snort out of him. I had so much I wanted to say to him to try to help him but it wouldn't come out right I just hoped what did made sense and did help.

"I guess your right but Kayli if he wants you more than he wants me then we are done I meant it I won't be second place in my relationship, I wouldn't do it to him or you, it could never work if it was unbalanced like that" I let his words sink in as we sat there "Kayl's is Axel right, about how you feel about us? Do you love us? Could you do it? This idea of theirs, knowing how they feel, how we feel about you?" Corey sort of mumbled the last bit but I heard it all the same. "How WE feel? Corey how do you feel about me? most of the time I'm so confused about my own feelings and lately I have been just trying to enjoy the moment with you all trying to see if it would fall into place, like I'd suddenly realise that I just fit right with one of you, but the thing is I fit with all of you, a piece of me is just right with each one of my guys ha, that's pathetic I've calling you all mine in my head for weeks now, and for the last few days I've trying to figure out what the hell has been going on with Axel and Marc and your brother. They have been more casual about touching and kissing me when we are all together I was starting to wonder if they were kinda letting go of the idea of me being with them seriously and just going for the casual sort of thing, I was worried they kinda didn't want me for the long haul if you know what I mean, even if their words said otherwise but I guess it was their way of testing the waters with this idea of theirs. You ask could I do it, be in a relationship with you all, love you all, the only answer I have is that I already am Cor I already am, but they told Raven that they love me but did they mean it and why didn't they tell me?" I looked at Corey I probably had the same look of shock on my face that he had at my little outburst. I was in love with them I could do what they were suggesting but that is an easy decision for me I get to keep them all be with them all, the real question was could they really do it? Raven couldn't and if it wasn't all it was none, I couldn't give any of them up.