My vacation love

Chapter 5

'Wake up Emily' my mom whispers as she shakes my body softly. I opened my eyes and looked her in the eyes. I smiled, i was so happy. 'Why are you smiling, you just woke up' my mom laughed. 'You won't believe this. We have new neighbours, very special neighbours.' i said while making myself comfortable on my bed. 'Huh, i don't get it Em, who are the special neighbours?' My mom asked me curiously. I told her what happened yesterday and told her everything Justin said to me. 'Wow, that's unbelieveable, he said that you'll probably see him again? She asked me. 'Yes he did, but i didn't even tell him my name' i said while making a pouty face. 'I'm sure you'll see him again.' she said. 'What if i don't' i mumbled. 'Don't worry please. Are you coming with us to the restaurant?' she asked me. 'No, i'm not hungry, i'll stay here.' i said. I got up and putted my clothes on when i heard my parents leave.

I sat in the couch, watching tv as i heard someone knock on the door. Wow, what if this is Justin, what if he wanted to say hi to me? I ran to the door and opened it, but when i when i saw the person that was looking at me, with a acted sad face, my happiness and excitement immediatly turned into anger and sadness. Lucas. I looked him in the eyes and said: 'What are you doing here, i'm so done with you and all your bullshit, i really don't want to see your face anymore. Did that other girl leave you? Or did you cheat on her too? Please don't start making up lame excuses.' He looked me in the eyes. 'I miss you, Emily, and i apoligize.' he whispered while he touched my cheek. This really gets me mad, i slapped his hand of my cheek. 'I don't ever want to see you again, how can't you understand that? Just go away, before you get me even more mad.' I told him in a angry tone. He walked a step back and i shut the door.

Ugh, i was so tired of seeing his stupid face. I really hope that i won't see him again today.

I spent the rest of the day laying in the couch and missing Justin. When my mom arrived from a trip to the city, she saw me laying in the couch, reading a magazine. 'Hey, is this what you've been doing all day?' she asked me while making herself comfortable on the couch too. 'Yes' i answered shortly. Poor girl, i hope you're coming to the restaurant with us, you haven't been outside the whole day.' 'Yes i am, mom' i answered with a slightly annoyed tone.

When we arrived at the restaurant i saw Lucas sitting all alone at a table. I tried to not look at him so he wouldn't notice me. My step-dad chose a table pretty close to Lucas' table. I ignored him for the rest of the evening, although he kept looking at me. I wish he was still in love with me. Because although every word he says annoys me, and all the things he did to me were so mean and not deserved, i still feel the same goosebumps i felt when i first saw him. I still feel the butterflies in my stomach that i have always felt for him. I'm still in love with this beautiful asshole. But he clearly didn't feel the same for me, and that's one of the reasons i have as i like to call it a 'vacation depression'.

I left the restaurant and was on my way to our suite. I thought vacations should be a couple of weeks relaxing and laying in the sun, but all i do is stressing out, crying, being sad and missing people. I miss Justin so much right now, i want to break down and cry. I know i should be happy that i've met him, but i didn't even have a normal conversation with him. Everyone was hurrying and i was still crying because of Lucas.

Suddently i feel someone tapping my shoulder. I look behind me and see Lucas standing there. Oh no, what will he say this time? 'Hey Emily, please listen to me this time, i know it's hard for you to forgive me but i really mean what i say. I'm so sorry Emily, i love you.' He looked at me with watery eyes. 'Why did you do it, you knew you'd see me there and you just kissed some other girl.' He came closer to me and held my hand. 'I'm sorry, you're the only one i really love and i don't know why i kissed her.' We stood there for a couple of seconds and i hugged him. I don't know why, i know he did horrible things but there's something about him that makes me love him uncontrolably hard. 'It's okay, i forgive you' i whispered in his ear while we were still hugging. He picked me up and kissed me.

We went to my suite and he dropped me on my bed.

He kissed me pasionatly and i kissed him back. He got on top of me and gave me neck kissed. After we played for a little while he tried to take my shirt off. 'No, i don't want this, i'm not ready for this. It doesn't seem right.' I said while pushing him off of me. 'Oh so you don't love me?' He asked me. 'I do, i'm just not ready for it and i want you to respect that.' I got up and sat on the other bed. Lucas got up and went to the bathroom. Suddently i hear his phone. New message from Nicki. 'Hey hunny, when are you coming? Love you xxx.' The fucking asshole. I hate him so freaking much. Just as i ran to the bathroom with his phone in my hands, he came out the door. I had to hold myself in so i wouldn't hurt him.

'What the fuck is this.' I yelled while showing him the text message. 'How did you find that?' He took the phone. 'Maybe you shouldn't leave it at places where your 'girlfriend' can see it. Now go away, i'm so fucking done with you. I pushed him out the door and started crying. Why the fuck did i forgive this asshole? There are so many other guys out there who are a hundred times better than he is and i'm still falling for him over and over again. I went to the backyard and sat in the couch. I was crying so hard and people from our resort were looking at me. I put my head on my knees and sat like this for a couple of minutes. 'Hey' i suddently hear someone behind me say. 'No Lucas i'm not falling for your sweet talks again, go away.' I cried without looking up. The person moved and sat next to me. He put his hand over my shoulder and hugged me. 'It's Justin, are you okay? I heard him say.

I looked up and saw a beautiful face looking at my bawling, ugly, sad face. I dried my tears and hugged him again. This hug was so special. It was a one-minute hug, a hug without saying anything. Just feeling Justin's body against mine and calming down. 'Are you okay?' He asked me.

'I don't know' i started crying even more.