As Long As I Need You

Craving

Kat and I left a bit later, considering we had a bit of a journey back to the University and I had an early class the next morning. She insisted I tag along to the gig Ben mentioned next week, as long as I try to put myself out there a bit more towards him. Wasn't spending the night in the same bed enough I thought? These Brit's go all in.

I couldn't stop thinking about Ben. We hadn't even kissed yet, but I still couldn't get his lips off my mind. I keep saying I don't want to fall for someone too fast and get my heart broken again, but I can't help myself when it comes to him. His sweet olive skin felt so nice against mine.

Over the course of the week I was bored to death over my new classes, as the excitement of a new atmosphere began to ware off. However, Ben kept me sane, his snarky little texts and his sweet motivating messages.

The night before Kat and I were to leave to the gig in Southhampton, Ben texted me:

"Hey love, can I ring you up real quick?"

"Sure x"

Just then my phone began to buzz.

"Hello?"

"Well hellooooo" a deep voice answered through the speaker.

"Hey, whats up?"

"So.. about tomorrow, you sure you still want to come? I mean you did call my band shit a little bit ago... think you compared it to a "high school band" or something?" Ben replied joking

"Ohhh yah... about that. I was just about to call and cancel, I have bigger and better plans then to see you an-"

He cut me off as usual "Once again you couldn't lie to me if you tried love."

I smiled so wide on the other end of the line, thank god he couldn't see how much of an effect he had on me.

"I was wondering if you wanted to go out after the show, ya know with the lads of course, and then you could stay with us in the hotel? I mean if you're down for that? We get our own rooms this night so I promise you wouldn't be stuck bunking with James or anything!"

"Yeah! That'd be great! I think Kat and I intended on staying but I'm for sure down." I replied

"Amazing, I'll see you tomorrow then love"

"See ya"

"Byeeeeeeee" he ended the conversation drawing out his words making me die a little on the inside. How was he so perfect? SNAP OUT OF IT MANDY you just met him!

The next morning Kat texted me that she would meet me at my place around half 11 to leave for the train station. I packed a bag making sure to have a cute outfit for the show that night and something a bit scandalous for after ;)

We got off the train and got a bite to eat, making our way to the venue at around 5, two hours before doors. The boys were unloading their gear from the bus when I caught Ben's eye. He dropped the amp he was unloading and ran over to me, pulling me in to a bear hug and lightly kissing my cheek.

"Hey babe! So glad you made it down. Hopefully we smash it tonight!" he said excited.

"Doubtful" I replied dryly, meaning to be sarcastically humorous but Ben must have thought I was serious as his face began to drop.

"I'm joking! Completely joking! American humor remember?" I explained.

"Oh yah I forget you're from another world" he joked as he slung an arm round my shoulders as we made our way backstage into the venue.

"AYYYYY MANDYYY" the boys greeted me, David shoving a drink in my hand as we cheers'd to the gig that night and an opener went on stage. We all chatted for a bit and then it looked like the boys were getting ready to go get warmed up when Ben took my hand and led me down a corridor.

We turned into a tiny dressing room, now filled with unused equipment and Ben lifted me up and placed me on the wall, holding my body up as he began to kiss me with such force that could move mountains and dry up lakes.

I kissed him back, needing him as he grunted against my skin, making me weak. He finally pulled away, much to my discontent and whispered "I couldn't resist getting a taste of the American dream"

I laughed shoving him away and laughing hysterically over his corny joke.

"Way to kill the moment!" I exclaimed still laughing.

"Well hey! Its the truth!" He responded before placing a hand on the small of my back and guiding me onto the main floor of the venue in front of the stage to avoid the curious glances from the rest of the band and Kat.

"I'll see you after" he whispered kissing me on the cheek.

'I don't know how I'm going to get through this night without getting any more attached' I thought to myself as Kat found me from the back of the crowd and the gig began.