One-Shots (About My Life and Fantasies)

My Secret

Happiness is hard to find. Thats why I'm holding onto it. Is that selfish? Yes, yes it is. Am I frustrated? Yes. Do I want her to take her time? I thought so, but it is currently killing me. Do I even have an affect on her?! That is a question I cannot answer, although I hope I do. I had a dream last night, it went a little like this:

I felt her on me, on top, looking at me as to ask what to do. I nodded my head and then felt her on my lips, lighting the fire of passion inside of me. I whispered her name, and my head slammed into reality, back into the pleasure.

You can imagine the rest, clothes flying, dramatic, disney movie worth. It's frustrating not knowing if she wants more. I do, I need more, or I'm going to get fed up. I just hope she figures it out soon. And I know I can't get mad at her because of it, I'm just so damn frustrated.

I barely kissed her all day and It drove me nuts. Crazy, but in a fed up way. I'm left again, needing more. It's embarrassing but true. I'm so grumpy all the time because of the constant frustration. Like seriously, it's most of the cause of my constant bad mood. I get set off at the simplest things and I don't even know why, sometimes they don't even bother me. I guess I'm just really god damn frustrated. That's my secret.