I Need U (Taehyung fanfic)

Chapter One

                 "I Need U"

I grab my head in pain. I winced at the contact from my boyfriends knuckles to my right cheek. BeomSeok was angry again.
"You were thinking about him again weren't you?!"
He screamed at me

"No! Please Stop! I wasn't thinking about him at all
I swear!"I cried in an attempt to make him stop. He didn't stop. My attempts are useless and I know that. BeomSeok didn't even have to say who the man in question was. I already knew: Taehyung.

We were just best friends. That's all. Though we both wanted to be more. I loved Beomseok. I'm that weak. And do think that low of myself. No matter what happened I always forgave him. And Taehyung knew that.
He was still mad at my choice of staying with BeomSeok but he ignored it just so he could talk to me without getting me upset. That was until the other night.
~FLASHBACK~
"You don't control me Taehyung! "I shouted at the brunette boy that followed behind me.
It was cold outside. Too cold. But I just kept walking. It was so dark too. Nothing but a street lamp and the faint light of the moon to allow visibility at this hour. "Mai, stop! You know you're going to get hurt! Just... Stop-okay...Please" he pleaded.
I stopped at the nearest street lamp.
I wanted to keep running. But the stupid naïve part of me stayed to hear him out.
"What?" I responded coldly. Trying to hold back the tears that threatened to escape my eyes. No! Damnit Mai get a hold of yourself! He jumped back slightly in response to my sudden rudeness.

   "Why are you doing this?" I asked my tone softening. "Because." He replied. "'Because' what?" I asked again.

"Because I have to. I always protect those I love."

I just stood there in shock of his words. And before I had any chance to protest Taehyung had suddenly stepped forward. I gasped at our close proximity. Taehyung's hand went up to my face. His fingers pushed a strand of hair behind my ear revealing a large purple bruise that took place on my left temple.
Taehyung ran his thumb over the purple mark gently. Yet I still grimaced at the touch.

      "He did this to you and he's going to again." His voice was quiet. I stared into his eyes for what seemed like hours. I could see my reflection and how utterly pitiful I looked.
"No he won't!" I shouted at him taking a step back. "He promised me he wouldn't ever again!" I said not sure of who I was trying to convince.

I could hear Taehyung scoff in disapproval . "Oh yeah, and what about the last time he 'promised you'? What was his excuse then?" Taehyung said putting extra emphasis on the "promised you". I inhaled sharply. I ignored his comment because I knew I had no answer. 

"It was my fault anyway. I shouldn't have bothered him. I knew he was having a bad day and I just made it more stressful for him." I had rehearsed this next thought so many times I started to believe it. I paused "It was my fault... I-I deserved it."

His eyes widened at my words.  "Don't say that...ever"  Taehyung then brought me close to him again. This time by grabbing my waist. "Taehyung, le-let me go," I said stuttering. "No" I was getting annoyed. "I said let go!" I then pushed him away from me. "Why do you keep doing this? I'm not some little girl who can't take care of herself. I don't need you!"

"Well I need you!" He responded his volume rising. "

"What?" I was all I could say.
And with that he quickly walked towards me. His hands flew to each side of my face and his lips crashed into mine. As as if on an instinct my wrapped themselves around his neck to bring our bodies closer. He pulled away first

"I love you." He breathed. "I need you. You may not believe me. But I needed you more than you've needed me." He whispered staring into my eyes "And I know you love me too."
With that he kissed me again. And we kept kissing only stopping to catch air.

I tried to tell him otherwise but each time I stopped talking it was not to think of what else to say. It was me taking a break to kiss him again.
"No-I dont-"
*kiss*
"I don't love you"
*kiss*
"Are you sure about that?" He whispered against my lips
"N-no..."
"I can't love you"
That thought brought me back to reality.
I pushed him away.
"Don't you get it Taehyung? I can't love you! I'm in a relationship with BeomSeok!Not you!" I reminded myself.
I could see how hurt he was but I didn't care-or at least I tried my best not to.

Tears continuedto run down my eyes. "Oh my God. What am I gonna do?"
"He'll be so angry. He'll be so angry at me." I repeated to myself.
"I-I must go."
I whispered. And went back to the apartment I shared with
Beeomseok.

Woah chapter one. I've honestly put off this story for so long. But now I want to at least publish the first chapter. And if I get enough reads (tbh one read is enough for my pitiful soul) I'll continue it.
R&R pls I would like to know how to improve.

Total Amateur here